My Past

Today, I got a message from a luvly friend of mine which asked me to look out for the song Berubah Hati by Anggun coz she told me that the song somehow illustrated what was the world that I've been living for the past few months which make up about a year I guess. Without me knowing what is/are the consequences about the song, I just hear it for the very first time in my whole life. And guess what, it really is. hehe. Tqsm dear for such recommendation.

People said, sharing is caring rite. So I thought that by sharing a fragment of time which I've once lived in and survived (I guess...:p), I wish that no one else in this world no matter from where you are, who you are or what you are...would ever experienced it coz it was way too difficult to resemble everything in words. For those who ........emmm, paham2 sendri la ea... get a grip of yourself. It's not the end of the world. This is what life was made up - a continuation or series of events which contributed towards either our survival or hell of frustration and despair. Trust me, you'll be a much better man once you've passed it. More lovable (sampai de org majuk sbb korunk x layan even korunk xde pape ngn die), mature and positive. :p

Anggun - Berubah Hati

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Cerita lalu di antara engkau dan aku
Dua hati ini pernah percaya
Seribu mimpi tanpa ragu tanpa curiga

Reff:
Ku tak ingin lagi
Menunggu, menanti
Harapan tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba
Hanya tuk kecewa
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara
Aku ingin pergi
Dan berganti hati

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Nada dan lagu yang dulu kucipta untukmu
Rasa yang dulu pernah ada
Kini berdebu terbelenggu dusta dan noda

Ku tak ingin lagi
Menunggu, menanti
Harapan tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba
Ku telah kecewa
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara

Kini ku sadari diri ini
Ingin berganti hati
Cinta yang tlah pergi
Harus berganti hati

Harus ku ganti hatiku kini
Harus ku ganti
Ini harus ku ganti
Tak perlu yang ini lagi harus berganti…

P/S: Thou I'm trying to my very best to assemble back the thousand pieces of my heart puzzle, I'm still powerless and no where near either to complete it or unlock it. Cheers. :)

Ultraman - Angel

It's been a while since ultraman dropped his tears for his one of a kind angel. Thou people may not understand the scenario in which ultraman and angel crossed towards each other, only those two who can actually clear the confusion behind all the theories and questionaires. Without having a deeper thought about their consequences, they kept on moving till the last drop of their blood and sweat.

Honestly for ultraman, to further equip himself with the preparation for the final day is truly one of the complicated things on earth that he ever thought of. What can an ultraman do to prevent the unwanted event which may caused him thousand years of disappointment and frustration. Nothing. Neither words can reach the ears of the angel nor orders which can control the action of the angel. What's left is that, a simple word best known as time.

Definitely, no one can stop the time from flowing as what it's been ordered ever since from the beginning. It's just an effort from a mere creation like ultraman who may or may not manipulate the circumstances of the event. Nevertheless, in this cases, what can an ultraman do was simply to create a shinning star in the heart of the angel. A star that will never fade through time, a star that nothing else can be compared of, a star which is specifically designed and customized for the only angel who ever lived.

For the one and only angel of ultraman, it's been such a wonderful time and experienced an ultraman ever had in his life being a mere creation - a merrier life without any concerns of dissapointment and misery. Despite the fact that knowing an angel is not something that was listed in his wish list or even things that can be anticipated from the beginning, ultraman got nothing else to say other than "Thank you...thank you...thank you".

2 years is defnitely way too short period for everything. Ultraman just can't keep up with the flow of pressure from all angle. What can an ultaman wish for the angel are nothing else than to live an outstanding and merrier life till her last breathe, regretting nothing and fully enjoy the presence of ultraman in her life.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, Tuhan sekalian alam. Hamba Mu yang keji lagi hina ini menadah sepuluh jari di malam hari memohon pertolongan Mu agar diperkuatkan semangatnya, diperkasakan imannya, dipermudahkan urusannya untuk menempuhi saki baki kehidupan di atas muka bumi ini. DiKau tenangkan lah hatinya, ringankan lah azabnya dan gembirakan lah hati dan sanubarinya. Hanya itu yang ku pohon pada Mu. Amin.~

BF Dating Guide (BDG) vs Hubby Dating Guide (HDG)

BDG: Took a min 1 hour to get shower, shaved and put a very nice scent of cologne, perfume.
HDG: Took a min 5 minutes to get everything prepared and spent the other 55 minutes waiting.

BDG: Dress smart on a date with a big smile crafted on his heart (perhaps on his brain).
HDG: Enough with vintage shirt, short and sandals. No emotional expression detected. Already in a no mood situation due to the long waiting time.

BDG: A jacket is compulsory item when watching a movie on a date.
HDG: A great snacks and drinks is compulsory when watching a movie on a date.

BDG: Quieing is not a problem.
HDG: Booking first, or else forget about the movie.

BDG: Recommend for couple seating when picking up a seat. Preferably those hujung2.
HDG: Recommend for a great movie which could inspire their love one.

BDG: When camera roled, curtain is off....actions took place.
HDG: When camera roled, curtain is off....snoaring took place.

BDG: Come out with nothing else than pure satisfaction about the action.
HDG: Regret picking up the movie as he can just download it thru the net.