Negaraku Merdeka

This message is dedicated exclusively from the bottom of my heart to my only beloved country, Malaysia and to all it's citizen despite the difference in ethnicity, race, religion, socio-economic background, political ideologies, shape, color and size...

Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan kali ke-53

Let us work together as one - continuously improving, maintaining and promoting the stability, peace and prosperity of our country.

Peace no war. :D

Am I'm Sicked?

Just collected my PMU offshore medical examination report from Twin Tower Medical Centre this morning. FYI, this is the very first time for me to undergone such procedures which involved numbers of examination from top to toe and required me to undress my shirt for several times. huhu. At first, I was kind of segan-segan silu to unbutton my shirt completely. Al-maklumlah, first timer la katekan. LOL.

And from there, I noted that the level of total cholesterol in my body is a bit high from the reference range. That's what triggered the alarm in my head to carry out a postmortem based on the findings eagerly - searching for an answer to justify the reason why and what's the consequences towards my health in the long run. Ceh, tu la...dulu orang suruh amik medic, xmau. Sibuk duk buat health inspection sendrik. :p

Just wanna share with uols about the topic mentioned herewith:-

Cholesterol is a lipid (fat chemical) that is made in the liver from fatty foods that we eat. A certain amount of cholesterol is present in the bloodstream. You need some cholesterol to keep healthy. Cholesterol is carried in the blood as part of particles called lipoproteins. There are different types of lipoproteins, but the most relevant to cholesterol are:

• Low density lipoproteins carrying cholesterol - LDL cholesterol. This is often referred to as 'bad cholesterol' as it is the one mainly involved in forming atheroma. Atheroma is the main underlying cause of various cardiovascular diseases (see below). Usually, about 70% of cholesterol in the blood is LDL cholesterol, but the percentage can vary from person to person.

• High density lipoproteins carrying cholesterol - HDL cholesterol. This is often referred to as 'good cholesterol' as it may actually prevent atheroma formation.

The following levels are generally regarded as desirable:

• Total cholesterol (TC) - 5.0 mmol/l or less. However, about 2 in 3 adults in the UK have a total cholesterol level of 5.0 mmol/l or above.
  
• Low-density lipoprotein (LDL) cholesterol after an overnight fast: 3.0 mmol/l or less. High-density lipoprotein (HDL) cholesterol: 1.2 mmol/l or more.
• TC/HDL ratio: 4.5 or less. That is, your total cholesterol divided by your HDL cholesterol. This reflects the fact that for any given total cholesterol level, the more HDL, the better.As a rule, the higher the LDL cholesterol level, the greater the risk to health.

However, your level of cholesterol has to be viewed as part of your overall cardiovascular health risk. The cardiovascular health risk from any given level of cholesterol can vary, depending on the level of your HDL cholesterol, and on other health risk factors that you may have.

And to keep it short and as simple as it can be, I've listed down all the possibilities to eradicate any symptoms of illness due to the excess of cholesterol and as an effort/insurance to ensure I have such a longevity, outstanding life style as per below:-

1. Try to watch out my diet from now onwards, or perhaps the easiest way (most preferable) is
   
2. Get myself a gugurl or gf or bini or seangkatan dengannya from medical background either a doc or a nurse. huhu.(kalo nak dedue skali leh x... :p)
   

Thou the price is a bit high from the other clinics which offer the same test, I promised you that you won't felt it such a waste/burden due to their tip top services and the quality of the reports. All in all, I would like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude to the doctors, nurses who take a great care of me during the test. :D

P/S: Life is short. Never thought that you are free from any possibilities of heart failure, disease just because you aren't a smoker, non-drinker, health cautious guy/lady & etc. We ain't controlling the ticking of the clock of life. ;-)

Mutual Affection

P/S: Love is a many splendid thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love! ~ quote from the movie Moulin Rouge ~

Sehati & Serumpun?

I'm not attempting to light up a spark of flame/anger against the ruthless and disgrace action by the Benteng Demokrasi Rakyat (rakyat lg...huhu) aka Bendera. It's just as part of the citizen of my beloved country, I just can't sit down act like nothing actually happened for the past few days.

I do understand the consequences about writing such post which might possessed a threat for those who reading it. But, I ain't stepping back from my freedom to raise my concern and share with the people who wish to hear my thought.

As we were completely aware about the demonstration by Bendera at the Malaysian embassy in Jakarta held in protest against the so-called arrest of three (3) Indonesians fisheries officials, they had thrown human feces at the embassy and stomped on the Malaysian flag. I just can't believed during at this point of time in the 21st century where science and technology rule the earth, there are still uncivilized people who tend to show up their eagerness,manhood through the act of a barbarian.

To be honest, I'm truly disappointed about things which took place earlier. I do understand the need to deliver their very own ideas about the dissatisfaction against what actually happened. However, wouldn't they just use an appropriate way of sending proposals and through diplomatic solution which is costless, timeless and much more humanitarian act. What a waste of time (where you can definitely do something which can earn you extra money rather than lepak-king and made a pointless demonstration in the middle of the noon....x panas ea?), talent and money (caused they need to buy our flag, a lighter to light up the fire). Don't you think so?

Apart from it, are you comfortable enough to hold your very own feces and then bring it to the embassy with your very own hand. er... even if I'm being paid million for it, definitely I won't caused I'm not that cheap and I have my own dignity and self-respect. In addition to that, they are simply showing their manhood in the middle of Holy Month of Ramadhan (x puase ke) where particularly in this month we've been advised to control our lust and suppressed our anger. What a day~

And also for the medias of both countries, try not to throw fuels to ignite the flame of hatred between these two nation. We've been together ever since from the beginning and why did we all of a sudden trying to stand up being a hero just for the cheap-sake controversial issues? It's already damned hard to get the independent, freedom and peace for each country and it is way too difficulty to maintain them without any toleration and wisdom.

Let us get back to the basic - we wanna live our life to the fullest, but first we need to ensure that we didn't do anything so stooooooopid enough to cause this troublesome event. Use our wisdom and brain instead of lust and anger. Jangan kerana setitik nila, habis susu sebelanga rosak.

Just wondering, as most of the political parties, NGOs in the country kept on sending message through medias about their disappointment against the act of Bendera, I still haven't heard anything even a tiny piece of comment coming out from the PR mouth. huhu. ops, tlbey sudey .... :p

P/S: Kind of a bit emo this morning caused have to cancel my holiday there. LOL

I'm Officially "Di Risik"...

Haha...just can't think of anything right now except to continuously laugh like there's no tomorrow bout my own "kesengalan" in selecting the top notch title of this post. huhu. Despite the fact that in normal tradition or at least in our Malay customs, man will be the one who bring this matter to their partner's parent and schedule a meeting between both parties for preliminary introductory session, but in my cases it was 360 degrees diverse. LOL.

I'll update soon once the "rombongan" arrive and how nostalgic would it be.

P/S: To all my secret admirers, gomeinasai mina san~ (ceh, glo perasan kambing diri kamu itu hot)

Leased Organ - Missed Payment - Died

I ain't having any plan last weekend, so I though that it should be okay if I just spend my morning time watching movie in the cinema. Thou at this point of time sleeping is much more meaningful rather than going out and burn your cash, I just can't sit down and enjoy myself without a plan on weekend. Reason wise, I've spent about a day last Saturday watching my car being serviced at workshop downtown - while she's been godek2 by the mechanics, me myself sitting down in the lounge watching tv from morning till end of noon.


Synopsis:-
Set in a future where health care reform has all but failed, the movie follows Union employee Remy (played by Jude Law), an average family man who pays for his suburban home by tracking down those individuals who have purchased artificial organs (artiforgs) on credit but who cannot meet their payment obligations. Once he finds them, he must repossess their artiforgs, which means...well, if you've ever seen the "Live Organ Transplants" sketch from Monty Python's The Meaning of Life, you know what that means: opening up the individual and returning the artiforg to the Union. But a repo goes wrong, putting Remy into a coma; when he wakes, he learns from his boss (Liev Schreiber, playing it with smarmy gusto) that he's been given an artificial heart to save his life.

Upon release from the hospital, his wife Carol (Carice van Houten) throws him out, refusing him even visitation with his son Peter. When Remy falls behind on his payments, he runs away with a woman (Beth, played by Alice Braga) with more artiforgs, and therefore far more to lose, than Remy. (When she learns, in one of the movie's most heavy-handed bits of symbolism, that Remy has an artificial heart, she tells him that that is the only part of her that isn't artificial.) A repo man tracks them down but is killed by Remy, leaving Remy's former partner and childhood friend Jake (thanklessly played by Forest Whitaker), to track him and Beth down before he can find a way to remove their payments from the Union's databases.

I've been waiting to watch this movie ever since I first saw the preview months ago. From the thriller showed earlier, it's kind of a piece of art and full with outrageous scene. Nevertheless, I found myself disappointed, a bit clueless and shivering in cold of the air-conditioner instead of fear. And I hate to say this, it's somehow promoted violent from the beginning till the end - educating people to corner their potential client to the very end of the road while hiding the truth from them. (basically, this is what we DID in our daily life):P

There are scenes in which I personally thought that has been carried out way to smoothly especially on the life taking part. pergh, blood spill all over the place (dah cam banjir kt pakistan dah) and it was truly a massacre, a night mare for each living things on earth. These so called repo man is somehow either an ex-army or to be exact, a serial killer who have found a space to live on executing their "task" thru their very own way and is acceptable by the community. OMG.

What I found the most bizarrely effective scene was when a man and woman kiss, caress and embrace passionately, while cutting deep into each other's body to nullify all their debts - it's a savage version of "I'm really into you". Man, that scene almost knock me off that day. Luckily I'm kind of immune to blood (I wish....hahaha).

Despite how tragic the movie is, there are still lessons in which we could learn especially on the importance of keeping a great care of our health. Blame me not, technology and science might save us and keeping us artificially breathe and alive as what we are - with the assistance from an artificial heart, lungs, kidneys, etc. But, it never come across any closer to bring the total happiness and peace of mind. Should this phenomenon somehow actually take place in the future, how are we going to survive. People tend to take things...ops I forgot...people tend to take EVERYTHING for granted. And thru this, I hope we can "steal" a minute in our life to think back about our mistake, our sins towards our health, our very own body. (sinis babe ayat ni...LOL)

Another thing in which I wish to highlight here is about the true meaning of friendship - it last forever and ever and ever and it's priceless. Thou we might argue about Jake's action which caused Remy a sudden changed of heart. But, at the end of the day you'll realized the important of having a partner who truly appreciate you for who you are and those who are willing to sacrifice almost everything for the sake of "helping" their love one.

P/S: If you wish to bring your love one to watch this movie, I proposed you bring along a shawl or something to cover your eyes when those scene played later.

Please Forgive Me of My Sins

I've been feelings a goosebumps since I stepped out from the office yesterday. But, who else care right as I'm competing with time for a chance which came once a while "Berbuka Puasa" session with my family.

Patiently I wait for the ulat gongok along with other riders to Kl Central. Typical behavior of mine, I'll definitely searching for a time thru the screen of my hp - even tho there is a time indicator allocated about 5 meters in front of me. LOL.

Suddenly, I got a call from office asking me about project bla...bla...bla... From the tone I heard, I knew there's something fishy going on in the office, something like a hurricane. I try to assist in a way I can afford to as I'm about to take a komuter back. What's going on my mind at that time - what ever happened after this either should I be called to go back to the office or not, I'll just prepare my self for the worst case scenario. But, there was no order for me to do so.

This morning when I walked into the office, things seem to be in an appropriate way and in a normal condition. But, when I first looked at my cubicle, I knew someone was there. Like I give a damned about it, I just switch on the monitor. As I expected, server's down and need to be restart back. What a day. LOL. That's when my eyes catch a glimpse of an unusual scenery or phenomenon near the office "entertainment areas". Nothing else came out from my mouth except "Astagfirullahalazim......".

There are 2 bottles of whisky (1 is completely vacant while the other 1 is kind of 3/4 full) - Blue Label placed on top of the table. What's happened yesterday, only God's know the best. As for me, I'm just a kuli here and my perception is based on what I've been taught since the beginning. sigh. I'm not quoting I'm kind of a superb muslim, pijak semut x mati, never commit any wrong doings and etc. Thou I myself kind of a bit noti sometime (;p), deep down inside I do realized the fundamentals being a muslim and the sense of responsibility being a khalifah in this world - to distinguish between halal and haram.

Later, when one of my colleague came in I asked her about things yesterday. And guess what, my prediction is somehow became a reality. I first thought that the cause of the hurricane shouldn't became an issue like what happened earlier. As my memory serve me better, things has been agreed on earlier and nothing came out that day. Suppose to be, there's no need for a room to continuously debating or arguing about it. Yet again, I found myself powerless over those intelligent creature.

What ever going to take place today, I'm ready to face it. No matter how harsh or worst things could have gone, I'll just keep on silent and try to behave like one. Plus, I ain't in a mood for this kind of "discussion". Let's just pray for the best of it. huhu.

P/S: I've been thinking, am I worthy of my salary at the moment or am I being used by them. LOL. Kind of feeling upset tersangat2 when I knew someone who doesn't possessed the quality to entitle them for such an income, allowances and bla...bla...bla. :(

Malaysian Muslim Who Inspired Me

A MAN KNOWN AS TAN SRI SYED MOKHTAR AL BUKHARY

Umur: 58 tahun (2010)
Pendidikan: SPM
Mula berniaga: 19 tahun (jual beli lembu dan kerbau)
Kekayaan: RM4.16 bilion sebagaimana dinyatakan dalam Senarai Bilionair Dunia Forbes 2007
Ke 7 terkaya di Malaysia
Ke 32 terkaya di Asia Tenggara (Forbes)
Antara syarikat miliknya: MMC, Pelabuhan Tg. Pelepas, BERNAS, Gardenia, DRB-HICOM dan Bank Muammalat
Kereta: Proton Perdana
Sumbangan sosial:Yayasan Al-Bukhary, institusi pengajian untuk 3,000 pelajar, Muzium Kesenian Islam, Kompleks Al-Bukhary, menaja kelas tuisyen untuk pelajar Melayu, pengindahan Masjid Negara, sumbangan RM1 juta untuk Tabung Tsunami dan menaja setiap tahun penghantaran rakyat Malaysia yang tak mampu untuk tunaikan haji.

BAGAIMANA sumbangan sosialnya bermula – Bila mana ibunya menyuruh memberikan sebahagian elaun (RM750.00) pertamanya sebagai pengarah syarikat beras kepada jiran yang susah. Sebahagian lagi (RM750.00) ibunya simpan. Selain itu, ibunya juga menyuruh beliau menghantar lampu kerosen ke surau-surau untuk menerangi kegiatan sepanjang malam bulan Ramadhan. Dari situ bermulalah pembentukan peribadi dan pemikiran Syed Mokhtar yang kita kenali hari ini.

1. Ada sebab kenapa saya bekerja seperti tiada hari esok. Agenda sosial dan kerja-kerja kemasyarakatan itulah antara sebabnya. Saya mahu meninggalkan warisan untuk anak bangsa yang kekal berpanjangan.

2. (Berkenaan know who) Bangsa lain tak mengapa tapi orang Melayu kena berdamping dengan orang politik sedikit-sedikit. Tapi masalahnya kita tidak mahu melalui kesusahan; banyak yang mahu senang dengan mendampingi orang politik semata-mata.

3. Tiada apa-apa rahsia. Saya ini hamba Allah biasa, budak dangau macam saudara semua juga. Tuhan jadikan manusia ini sama sahaja. Proses kematangan saya yang membezakannya. Saya percaya sesiapa pun boleh menjadi apa sahaja asalkan mereka berusaha dengan tekun. Tetapi tentulah ia memakan masa. Tiada jalan singkat.

4. Saya mengenali kekuatan dan kelemahan saya. Apa yang tidak mampu buat saya akan minta orang lain tengok-tengokkan. Saya melalui jalan yang susah tapi itulah jalan yang kekal.

5. Kita perlu menggunakan kepakaran mereka (bangsa Cina) kerana mereka jauh lebih maju dan mahir daripada kita. Apa yang kita kurang faham kita berkongsi dengan tujuan untuk belajar dengan mereka. Apabila sudah faham baru kita boleh menjaga kepentingan kita.

6. Saya sedih melihat sistem sekolah pondok di Kedah. Saya ada cita-cita mahu memodenkan sekolah pondok. Kita kena maju.

7. Saya terlibat dalam perniagaan ini kerana saya tiada pilihan lain.

8. Untuk memajukan perniagaan, memang kena banyak sabar dan kuat berusaha.

9. Tidak ada jalan singkat. Saya belajar tentang perniagaan ini sejak kecil lagi dan saya juga biasa kena tipu.

10. Saya pun suka kemewahan. Saya pun suka tengok dunia, ke Tokyo, New York dan London. Saya pun suka pakai baju elok. Tapi kita hendak bermewah setakat mana, hendak pakai baju banyak mana, hendak tidur dalam berapa rumah satu malam, hendak makan pun sampai larat mana?

11. Dalam hidup ini kita sebenarnya tidak ada status; ada masa diatas, ada masa di bawah.

12. Ketika Allah memberikan kemewahan, kita kena turun ke bawah, tengok mana-mana yang boleh dibantu. Allah beri rezeki melalui kita untuk kita tolong orang lain. Rezeki itu bila-bila masa dia boleh ambil balik. Jika ada orang korporat Melayu yang tidak mahu turun ke bawah mungkin kerana bayangan duit itu lebih kuat daripada yang lain.

13. Korporat Cina turun ke bawah membantu. Orang Cina ada pelbagai persatuan. Kita tidak ada; kalau ada pun berpecah. Orang Melayu kita tidak mahu bekerjasama kerana perasaan dengki menguasai diri. Sudahlah tak mahu berusaha, apabila orang lain berusaha mereka marah.

14. Rezeki yang ada itu sebenarnya untuk orang lain. Memang dari segi hukum pun begitu. Kita kena keluar zakat dan fitrah. Tetapi zakat fitrah banyak mana sangat. Islam agama yang adil; ia minta sedikit saja. Oleh itu, kalau ada duit yang lebih ia seharusnya dibelanjakan dengan baik.

15. Saya tak kisah kalau saya tak buat semua ini. Saya boleh tak buat apa-apa dan balik ke Alor Star. Tetapi saya rasa hidup ini sia-sia. Orang Kedah kata kalau mati nanti mata tidak tutup rapat kerana tanggungjawab depan mata kita tidak buat. Orang lain ambil kekayaan kita, ambil hak kita dan pergunakan kita, kita masih tidak buat apa-apa !

16. Saya ada emotional attachment kepada agama, bangsa dan ummah. Saya bukan individualistik. Diri saya tidak penting. Pangkat dan gelaran ini kepada saya tidak mustahak.

17. Saya sedih media tonjolkan saya begini. Saya malu kerana orang Cina kaya beratus-ratus kali ganda daripada saya. Tapi saya tahu orang Melayu kalau hendak berjaya kena kerja kuat tidak kira siang malam. Kita ada kekuatan yang Tuhan beri melebihi daripada bangsa lain. Tetapi untuk maju kita perlu berusaha.

18. Saya asal daripada tidak ada apa-apa. Apa yang saya tidak tahu saya belajar, minta tolong daripada orang. Saya tidak malu. Saya bukannya mencuri. Saya usaha sendiri. Sikap pemalas dan pemalu ini yang orang Melayu kena atasi. Kita kena berani kerana benar. Apabila kita dapat keuntungan dan rezeki lebih, bolehlah kita menolong orang.

19. Kaya itu bukanlah kepada diri sendiri. Kaya itu adalah kepada kumpulan perniagaan ini, kepada bangsa dan kepada orang ramai. Saya hanya memegangnya untuk sementara sahaja.

20. Saya tiada keinginan untuk menyimpan kekayaan ini untuk anak dan isteri. Duit ini tidak akan kekal. Saya percaya hanya perkara yang baik yang kita lakukakan akan kekal. Bukan duit yang akan melindungi saya nanti tapi apa yang saya lakukan sekarang.

21. Saya perlu terus mencari peluang dan perniagaan lain supaya kita terus dapat bantu orang lain mengembangkan diri masing-masing. Saya bukan buat semua ini untuk diri saya semata-mata.

22. Ada juga yang saya usaha tapi tak dapat dan orang tak tahu. Apa yang saya dapat itu yang jadi masalah kononnya Syed Mokhtar sapu semua. Bangsa lain memegang pelbagai kepentingan dalam ekonomi, siapa pun tak kata apa. Ini masalah orang Melayu. Di kampung orang Melayu berpecah kerana politik, di bandar berpecah kerana ini (wang).

23. Saya percaya kalau rezeki itu Allah beri kepada saya ia bukan untuk saya tetapi untuk orang ramai juga. Orang tidak tahu banyak syarikat yang saya ada ini gagal dan tidak maju kepada saya tetapi orang tidak tahu.

24. Banyak orang percaya bahawa dia mesti ada RM10 juta atau RM20 juta dalam tangan baru hidup boleh selamat. Ini yang menyebabkan mereka hanyut daripada menolong orang lain. Mereka lebih takutkan diri sendiri. Mereka lupa bahawa kekayaan tidak boleh membantu selama-lamanya.

25. Orang kata saya takda duit tapi banyak hutang. Orang berniaga mana yang tak berhutang. Tapi mesti tahu bagaimana hendak meminjam dan membayarnya semula. Ada cara boleh kita buat. Tapi sebelum berhutang RM100 juta mesti sudah fikir bagaimana hendak membayarnya balik. Mesti ada tanggungjawab. Banyak orang mahu senang tapi tidak ramai yang mahu bertanggungjawab.

26. (Perasaan setiap kali mendapat rezeki). Saya ini kata orang Kedah, lebai kodok bukan lebai pondok. Tapi saya tahu hal-hal asas. Kalau mahu saya minta terus dari Tuhan. Tuhan beri manusia akal dan fikiran. Kalau hendak pakai baju dan seluar biarlah padan dengan badan.

27. Kesenangan yang saya perolehi ini datang dengan tanggungjawab (bila pinjam bayar balik dan buat amal jariah). Kalau hendak dibandingkan dengan bangsa lain, perniagaan saya ini tidak ada apa. Tetapi walaupun sedikit tetapi yang sedikit itu ada berkatnya.

28. Saya suka kalau nikmat sedikit yang saya dapat itu orang lain boleh berkongsi sama.

29. Saya kadang-kadang kecewa dan sedih melihat anak orang alim yang sesetengahnya lupa diri setelah mendapat kekayaan. Saya pun sama seperti orang lain suka hendak ke luar negara tetapi kita tidak boleh lupa kubur kita dan asal usul kita. Di kampung kita mungkin ada jiran-jiran yang perlukan bantuan.

30. ……kalau tidak mungkin saya sudah ke Haatyai dan jadi nakal. Saya manusia yang banyak buat kesilapan. Tetapi saya insaf, beristighfar dan jalan lagi. Sejak awal saya ada kesedaran mahu mengekalkan hak kita sebagai orang Melayu.

31. Saya kata kepada diri sendiri kalau kerana itu saya terpaksa bersusah sedikit pun tidak mengapa.

32. Kekayaan ini Tuhan beri kepada saya untuk saya menolong orang lain pula. Saya percaya kepada keberkatan rezeki. Hari ini kita tolong orang, esok lusa orang akan tolong kita pula dengan cara yang lain.

33. Kalaupun tidak sanggup tunggu 34 tahun seperti saya berilah sedikit masa untuk faham selok belok perniagaan, Insya Allah boleh maju.

34. Kita jangan cepat putus asa. Putus asa boleh tapi kena cepat-cepat kuatkan semula semangat untuk bangkit balik. Jangan jadikan agama hanya satu tempat untuk kita bergantung apabila kita susah. Tanggungjawab ibadah adalah tugas seharian.

35. Lifestyle ? Saya tidak ada lifestyle yang kena masuk kelab sana dan sini. Tapi tak semestinya saya tidak boleh turun ke kelab. Orang Melayu kalau hendak ke depan mesti ada cara hidup yang fleksibel, boleh naik dan turun.

36. Lifestyle ini sebenarnya satu penyakit. Saya biasa pakai Mercedes tapi sekarang saya pakai Proton Perdana untuk sokong kereta nasional. Kereta itu pun cukup untuk bawa saya ke mana-mana.

37. Tiada sebab orang kenapa Melayu tidak boleh maju. Ini saya berani perang dengan sesiapa pun. Orang Melayu boleh maju. Kalau saudara jadi wartawan saudara kena tanam semangat suatu hari nanti mahu ambil alih akhbar ini. Tidak ada sebab kenapa ia tidak boleh berlaku.

38. Kejayaan dan kelemahan orang Melayu bukan disebabkan oleh bangsa kita dan agama kita. Ia berkait dengan sikap dan cara kita berfikir. Gigih, tekun dan tidak mudah putus asa merupakan kunci kejayaan kita. Tapi perkara ini kurang wujud dalam cara orang Melayu berfikir.

39. Tuhan memberi peluang kepada siapa saja yang bekerja kuat. Apa yang ada pada saya ini hanya usaha. Kalau anak dangau macam saya boleh, tidak ada sebab orang lain terutama mereka yang dari pekan tidak boleh.

40. Kita tidak usahlah selalu mengulang-ulang perkara yang boleh memberikan kesan psikologi negatif kepada orang Melayu (kereta dan rumah besar). Kita kena kurangkan bercakap tentang kereta besar dan rumah besar. Sesiapa pun mahu pakai kereta mewah tapi bukan itu matlamatnya.

41. Orang Melayu sebenarnya kena membantu diri sendiri, kena bekerja keras dan fokus.

42. Sikap merendah diri perlu sentiasa ada dalam diri seseorang walau setinggi mana pun kejayaan dicapai.

43. Apa yang saya buat ini (kerja-kerja sosial) semuanya bermula daripada didikan orang tua saya sendiri.

44. Saya sendiri berhutang sambil berniaga dan buat sumbangan amal jariah. Saya tak mahu tunggu hutang habis baru hendak buat semua ini. Saya takut kalau hutang habis saya pun mati dan apa pun tak sempat saya buat.

45. Saya biasa saja. Hidup saya tidak berubah, dari dulu beginilah. Saya terima apa saja nikmat yang diberikan oleh Allah. Tidak ada segelas air, ada setengah gelas pun saya bersyukur.

46. Kalau kerana sedikit bantuan itu mereka lulus peperiksaan dan hidup mereka menjadi lebih baik, saya sudah gembira. Saya tidak boleh buat banyak. Alhamdulillah, lebih baik buat sedikit daripada tidak buat langsung.

47. Saya tiada minat untuk beli kapal layar atau kapal terbang. Saya fikir kalau saya beli sesuatu biarlah orang ramai boleh pakai. Saya suka kalau saya beli sesuatu yang mahal, biarlah orang ramai boleh pakai.

48. Saya gembira dapat membantu. Saya mahu orang lain merasai (kesenangan) apa yang saya pernah rasa. Saya tahu bagaimana perasaanya. Saya kata kepada diri saya, apa yang saya dapat saya mesti beri orang lain merasainya sama. Jangan beri kurang, lebih tak mengapa. Itu yang membuat hati saya seronok.

49. Saya rasa saya ingin menyumbang lebih daripada ini. Saya kata kepada kawan-kawan ini baru warm-up saja; kita belum berjalan lagi.

50. Saya rasa kita terlalu banyak ketinggalan.

P/S: I wish that all Malaysian superior/boss adapting and adopting the way Tan Sri lead his life on. Kudos to uols.

Love is ...

P/S: No specific reason for this post. Just would like to share with the worlds about LOVE. :p

Perception

- LUCU, TAPI KADANG-KADANG PERKARA INILAH YANG SELALU JADI KAT KITA -

Di suatu petang yg nyaman....sedang saya syok2 tido, terasa ada sesuatu melompat atas kepala saya

Kemudian, benda tu bergerak ke badan

Pastu, rasa cam kena patuk kat perut... takkan kutu kot?

Bila toleh... rupenyer si ijou, burung tecik yg tuan saya baru beli semlm

Saya suruh ijou gi main jauh2, saya xmau kawan ngan dia...lagi pun saya ngantuk giler ni

Tapi dia xmau, and masih patuk2 saya

Pastu masih nak naik atas bdn saya, berat gak si ijou ni

Tak lama pastu, saya dengor dia tgh patuk benda lain lak... rupanye mengerjakan hp tuan saya

Saya pun jerit "Oit!! Rosak nanti tuan marah lah"

Dia melawan lak tu

Masa saya nak luku kepala dia sedas, tuan saya lalu lak

Akibatnye saya dihukum tanpa dipanggil utk membela diri...

Oh...di manakah keadilan? Bukan saya yg wat tuan~~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
SOOOOO CUTEE

A Picture is Worth Thousand Words

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As we are in the midst of holy month Ramadhan, I wish to share with you a piece of history taken by late Kevin Carter. Thou he may not contribute much towards the development of fast-moving society today, there's a deep message which he left for us the figure it out.

This was found in his diary:-

Dear God,
I promise I will never waste my food no matter how bad it can taste and how full I may be.
I pray that He will protect this little boy, guide and deliver him away from his misery.
I pray that we will be more sensitive towards the world around us and not be blinded by our own selfish nature and interests.
I hope this picture will always serve as a reminder to us that how fortunate we are and that we must never ever take things for granted.

Through blood shed and hard work we've "sincerely" sacrificed for, definitely we are eligible to claim for our income. Indeed the moment we withdraw the cash from the atm machine, undoubtedly we've unleashed the door of lust to continuously and unwisely spending character - especially during berbuka puasa and the most anticipating event "Hari Raya".

Not every single life in this world up to this moment had live a life soooooo blessed like what we currently ride on. As we tend to take so many things for granted, we may think that we are the most unfortunate people in this world without we even realize or visualize the fact that there is/are people out there who need our assistance the most in order to survive.

Hence, let's make a prayer for the suffering in anywhere any place around the globe - think and look at this when we complain about our food and the food we waste daily...

Say NO to Baby Dumping!!

PETALING JAYA: The Cabinet has decided to classify baby dumping that leads to the death of babies as a crime that warrants the death sentence. This was needed to nail those responsible for the deaths of the babies, said Women, Family and Community Develop­ment Minister Datuk Seri Shahrizat Abdul Jalil. “The Cabinet has decided that the Home Ministry through the police, investigate these cases as murder when a baby dies,” she said.

Police would be asked to conduct DNA tests to identify the parents of dead babies, she said in a statement. Under Section 302 of the Penal Code, the punishment for murder is death. Before this, cases of baby dumping which led to death were mainly investigated under Section 317 (abandonment), Section 318 (concealment of birth by secret disposal of body), Section 309 (infanticide) or Section 31 of the Child Act (abandonment), said a ministry’s legal officer. Jail sentences ranged from 10 to 30 years and offenders were also liable to fines.

Source: Star

Things has gotten even worst from the day I've been enlightened with the following equation as per below:-

"get laid + unprotected/raw = "accidental" baby"

And the ultimatum consequences from the following equation would be "Baby Dumping".

Thou I might not be the ideal kind of guy in this world to raise my concern here, as part of the community I believe we have our very own part, roles and responsibility to further educate our youngsters, colleagues and our beloved family.

It's undeniably yet undoubtedly, most of these cases involving youngsters - problematic, rebellious and experimental society. In other words, "the work of amateurs". That's the closest term which I could figure it out at this point of time. The consequences of being ashamed and manners of a cowards which resulting in a cruel action through an act of a monster.

FYI, I'm quoting the term "amateurs" in this post not to mentioned as if I'm some kind of a "professional" in this field of some sort of guru. Me myself has lots and lots and lots more to work on particularly to further equipped and enhanced my self with the knowledge especially when it comes to 18sx subject.

The community always thought that when it comes to this kind of thing, men is definitely "terror" as if they've been equipped with all sorts of techniques, freaking crazy ideas on how to turn on the switch, and bla...bla...bla. But the truth is, man knows nothing about it and yet they've done nothing to understand the true nature of the relationship. What they really cares about is how to screw a chix for less than 5 minutes of satisfaction. (cam tau2 je aku ni kn...:p)

Thou I'm ashamed of my kind towards their perception about the subject, I still believe the damn best way to prevent these cancer is through life-time education. Due to lack of knowledge and self awareness about the consequences, these youngsters (and some those oldies) committed the crimes in which at the very first place they should have been able to distinguish between good and evil. It's just when it comes to lust, people tend to bow for it rather than to control it. sigh

People used to quote - prevention is better than curing. Therefore, I believed no matter how educated someone might be, how well their life is - still they need to further equip themselves with these knowledge. And it would be such a great deals if we can look into it from the religious perspective - as our guidance and shield.

Thou I'm against violence at all time and definitely not one of them, I'm pretty much supporting the efforts publicized above. It's just that I wish the authorities not to come out with any punitive measure without a thorough study as these issue deals with a sentimental elements especially from the women point of view. I hope that the end results on the measurement would be achieved through a join-venture discussion between Ulama', organizations and authorities. Hoping for a better world tomorrow.

Peace~

Facebook Dilemma~

Kalau binatang ada fb, agak-agak begini lah ea komen-komen binatang tersebut kat STATUS yg mcm korunk selalu post tu.......

Cicak : Tuan rumah baru beli reket elektrik, gua kenduri nyamuk BBQ mlm nih...

Nyamuk : Baru habis ronda rumah Ajoi... kenyang burp, Alhamdulillah. ..

Aedes : Baru jer selamat bagi injekan maut, yeah!!!

Ayam : Tidaaaaaaaaaaaak, Besok majikan gua mau buat kenduri kesyukuran, gua mau di sembeliiiiihhh! ...

Cicak : Isteriku tersepit pintu

Kucing Betina : "Anak i yang ke-5 baru tanya siapa bapaknya. I bingung nak jawab apa. I sendiri lupa bapaknya siapa."

Ayam : Kawan2...kalu esok guwe tak update...bererti guwe udah di goreng....I luv u all... jangan luper wat kenduri arwah untuk I yaa...

Nyamuk : Siot, sekali drug addict gua hantam daaaa. Gua positif HIV AIDS... uwaaaaaaa

Cicak : Mau ke ke bilik air anak tuan rumah jap ... baru beli videocam baru ...

Kucing: Baru je add awek sebelah umah... keturunan PARSI beb!!!

Tikus: Operasi malam ni... selongkar kitchen kabinet... sape nak ikot?

Katak : Malam ni nk wat konsert la..da lama x ujan ni..hangat oii..

Ular : Rasa mcm nk makan lauk telo la malam ni..mana nk cari ek..

Anjing : Aku tension bila ada mat rempit berkumpul tepi rumah aku tiap malam. Nak tido pun x senang hanjeng punya org.

Kuda Patah kaki : Rider aku bangang salah timing bila nak lompat pagar, sekarang rehat kat kandang.

Kura-kura : Aku sakit hati bila bini aku berjalan. Lembab mcm siput babi.

Siput Babi : Aku sakit hati bila bini aku bergerak. Lembab mcm kura2.

Gagak : Tadi jumpa ayam KFC. Jangan jeles.

Burung Kakak Tua : Penat betul nk ubah stigma masyarakat. Walaupun aku Burung Kakak Tua, tapi aku burung Jantan!!!

Babi hutan : Susah betul nak cari makanan halal sekarang ni.

Kera : Semalam GF aku bagi bunga. Sedap jugak kunyah.

Tikus : Aku makan mee goreng mamak kat Al Naz maju@precint 9. Meh la join sekali.

Lalat : Asyik hurung bangkai je. Alhamdulillah hari ni jumpa nasi bungkus.

Sotong : Aku bengang bila tapak sulaiman ejek aku si lembut.

Kucing : Update petang karang tepat jam 5.00pm slow ngendap ala2 pink panther nyurik ikan bawal kepunyaan kak lela majnun. ..

Lipas : Merasmikan pengunaan kepak baru sekali bila dikembangkn. ..gerun tengok mmber aku kene tarik dgn jeli2 panjang kepunyaan cik cicak..eee seram nyeee....

Itik Serati : Hahahhaa lawak2 ayam serama tu ade hati jalan tersengguk2. ...nk tiru aku le tu.. lol....

Ikan Laga: Boring sey, duduk sorang2 dalam tanki ni.

Ikan Parang : Kurang asam punya manusia, letak gambar aku kat depan bekas keropok.

Ikan Jerung : Kenapa x de sorang pun nak add/approve aku. :-(

Ikan Sepat : Terkenang jiran sebelah yang dah dijadikan ikan pekasam. Al Fatihah

Ikan Bilis : Wah ramainya kawan kita. Tahniah remy, ko kawan aku yang ke 5000.

Ikan Arowana : Cantik tak sisik I? Cantik kan ?

Ikan Mas Koki : Macam mana nak kurus nie?

Al-Fatihah

Al-Fatihah to late Hafis Zikri (1987- 10 August 2010) and his family.

P/S: Ajal maut di tangan Tuhan, tiada siapa yang dapat menduga mahupun mengelakkanya.

Clash of the Captains

From the bottom of my heart, I'm expressing my deep concerned and disappointment about the dugaan which happened to strike me night before Ramadhan. Argh......what's on earth is going on here actually.

It's all begin with a one phone call from my colleague asking me about the final decision on the price before he send the quotation. At first, I thought it was just a normal call asking for confirmation on the price given earlier. But, all of a sudden, he mentioned that Captain A already gave him a new price and instructed him to include it in the quotation.

I was totally shocked about the new price given as it was definitely insufficient to cover for the total cost of the project - in other word under quote. I start arguing as I'm fully aware that the price given earlier by Captain B had already been agreed thereof by both parties. Hence, it shouldn't become a conflict here. (FYI, the company were run by 2 caps)

Later than I heard that the situation was sort of flaringly intense. Me and my colleague opt to pretend that we are just merely and simply following the supreme order, although we are expecting flaming words between these 2 caps soon......i mean very soon. Now, I start thinking - is it safe for me to stay for few more months or I need to reschedule everything and flee at the soonest. LOL.

Indeed, situations like these are sometimes unavoidable and come even if people never like these to happen. These incidents do happen, even under all unfavorable and awkward circumstances. I really hope that one of them is trying to fix the mess and wishing that it will not become a catalyst for the eruption of volcano this noon.

P/S: This is what happen when a ship were run by more than 1 caps. :p

NOTE: Wishing that we can pass through this Ramadhan though the driven code below. huhu

Expected Life in Ramadhan

Just got a confirmation from the management that starting up this coming Ramadhan, we'll be given the following privileged which are:-

1. Working hour has been shorten from 9.00 am - 5.00 pm as the 1 hour allocated for staffs to bermalas-malas has been taken away. (definitely I'll be opening my fasting inside komuter AGAIN)
   
2. There might be "Berbuka Puasa" events sponsored by this guy, that guy & etc - time for payback :P
   
3. Possibility of ribut taufan, lautan bergelora, angin kencang or hurricane mengganas in the office might be as low as possible. Yet you could expect one in the nearest future - arrghh tenc...LOL
4. And also - as been "highlighted" few days before, no more extra late night-morning working hours & etc till the end of the day. (leh caye ke...huhu)
   

Before I end, let us recall back on the lafaz niat and lafaz berbuka together and wishing that this coming Ramadhan will bring us with the unlimited joy, happiness and peace in our heart, mind and soul.

Lafaz Niat Puasa Ramadhan (harian):

“Nawaitu souma godhin ‘an adaa i, fardhi syahri ramadhaana haadzihis sanati lillahi ta’aalaa”

Sahaja aku berpuasa esok hari dalam bulan Ramadhan tahun ini kerana Allah Taala.

Doa Berbuka Puasa:

“Allahumma laka somtu wa bika aamantu wa ‘alaa rizqika afthartu birahmatika ya arhamarrohimin”

Ya Allah bagi Engkau aku berpuasa dan dengan Engkau aku beriman dengan rezeki Engkau aku berbuka dengan rahmat Engkau wahai yang Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang.

Note: Don't forget to replace “tu” (which means I) with “na” (which means we) if reciting it in jemaah.

Amin~

Salam Ramadhan to Uols

Tanpa Disedari
11 bulan
banyak kata sudah diucapkan dan dilontarkan
tak semua menyejukkan,

11 bulan
banyak perilaku yang sudah dibuat dan diciptakan
tak semua menyenangkan,

11 bulan
banyak keluhan, kebencian dan kemarahan

saatnya istirahat dalam "perjalanan dunia"
saatnya membersihkan jiwa yang berjelaga,
saatnya menikmati indahnya kemurahanNya
saatnya memahami makna pensucian diri

Selamat menunaikan Ibadah Puasa
bersama kita leburkan kekhilafan,

Semoga dengan puasa mempertemukan kita
dengan Keagungan Lailatul Qadar
dan kita semua menjadi pilihanNya
untuk dikabulkan do'a - do'a

dan kembali menjadi fitrah

Appointments AGAIN

Actually, I'm kind of missed my appointment with my buddy this morning due to my unconsciousness sleep last night. Sorry bro, I thought that I would like to join you for your Scirocco test drive, but I end up woke kind of bit late this morning. Gomeinasai boss.

Rush up to prepare myself for the other appointment this morning for my part time job, but got a call later that it's been postponed due to some stuff going on and schedule to meet by 3 pm today. Adeh, penat atuk bangun awal. huhu

Indeed, I've received another invitation from my colleague to zouk tonite. But haven't finalize my decision either I would like to join them or let it go. Wish I could use kagebunshin and enjoy the rest of the days without missing anything. LOL

As Ramadhan dropping by early next week, and muslims around the world especially in Malaysia (mostly) will begin fasting for about a month, I think that I should give myself enough rest and preparation to face the challenges - need to watch out for cash flow in-out, bobot size and the temptation/lust for spending way too much on the "berbuka" feast.

P/S: Can't wait to visit the nearest PaRam (Pasar Ramadhan) which definitely offers variety of superb cuisine for the rest of the month. :p

Avatar Again?

I'm quite confused earlier either should I pick "The Last Airbender" or "Tekken" simply to throw up some cash even thou I knew I'm risking my meals and dinners for the rest of the months. But then, I got lucky since in today's free newspaper (perlu ke mentioned...LOL), there are reviews on both films done by the reporter. Thank you bro for your excellente' and sincerity in presenting your very daboom comments and remarks. You really made my day. :D

This time around, I drove direct to Bukit Tinggi as I plan to pay for my broadband bill before the dateline next week. Had sizzling yee mee with mushroom and chicken at the food court on level 2. Thou it may not be as superb as what I've tasted on my first attempt in the year 1998, but all in all it's quite good and tasty. :p

Movie start at 10 pm and it was way too crowded with people and kids - what would you expect right as this one was an adaptation of the popular animated Nickelodeon TV series "Avatar". At first, I did asked myself why on earth are they changing the title of the movie. It creates confusion among us especially when the mesmerizing and splendid "Avatar" came over to cinema last December 2009. Soon I google it and found out that they dropped "Avatar" from the title of the action-adventure so as to avoid confusion with James Cameron's 3-D epic "Avatar". huhu

Summary:-
The world is divided into four kingdoms, each represented by the element they harness, and peace has lasted throughout the realms of Water, Air, Earth, and Fire under the supervision of the Avatar, a link to the spirit world and the only being capable of mastering the use of all four elements. When young Avatar Aang disappears, the Fire Nation launches an attack to eradicate all members of the Air Nomads to prevent interference in their future plans for world domination.

100 years pass and current Fire Lord Ozai continues to conquer and imprison anyone with elemental "bending" abilities in the Earth and Water Kingdoms, while siblings Katara and Sokka from a Southern Water Tribe find a mysterious boy trapped beneath the ice outside their village. Upon rescuing him, he reveals himself to be Aang, Avatar and last of the Air Nomads. Swearing to protect the Avatar, Katara and Sokka journey with him to the Northern Water Kingdom in his quest to master "Waterbending" and eventually fulfill his destiny of once again restoring peace to the world.

But as they inch nearer to their goal, the group must evade Prince Zuko, the exiled son of Lord Ozai, Commander Zhao, the Fire Nation's military leader, and the tyrannical onslaught of the evil Fire Lord himself.

My very first comment would be that if you really think that the teaser shown earlier is somehow a scene in this first film, you'll definitely found yourself hopeless. What you'll actually see were how Aang strive to live and to fulfill his destiny as an "Avatar" - the one and only who can communicate with the spirit (kind of a dragon looks a like) and to maintain the order and to bring back the peace to the world. For visual effects, I would say "Congratulation to M. Night Shyamalan. You've successfully integrate cultures in your movies especially on the custom and tradition between east and west particularly on the practice of martial arts, concept of yin & yang, love and responsibility".

However, I find myself kind of rushing from one plot to another since the beginning till almost 3/4 of the story. There are things which need for further clarification and justification in order to ensure the level of acceptance and understanding is similar between audience. In addition to that, there's a lot of narration going on in this movie and the attitude/behavior of each character is quite different from what we normally seen in the animation. Therefore, I really hope that for the sequence of this movie, producer shall cover the lacks in the previous one, further improve on the story board and on the characters attitude.

All in all for me, it worth every penny I spent tonight. Though I may not be as lucky like previous one where I'm surrounded by gugurls in the cinema (mlm ni kene kerumun ngn laki2 badan gedabak besau..huhu), I did enjoy the show and I'm quite satisfied. Aang is quite kawai in this movie (aku bukan gay ok, tp mmg comey pong) and wish that there is a sequence for this one - where we can see how Aang further improve his skill and successfully learn, control and manipulate all 4 elements. And also, Aang in this movie is quite serious and aren't playful as what we've seen in the animation. Hence, it would be such a pleasant if they can somehow inject more humour in Aang's act. For those who plans to bring small children to watch the show, don't worry - there's only 1 kissing scene between the Princess Yue and Sokka - just normal 3 secs kiss. :p

Meaning of a Friendship

Deep down inside my head previously, I thought that my life is completely perfect. I got someone whom I care about, a place I called home and a family who love me and take a deep concern about me beside my very own family. Thou there is/are people eagerly trying to break the chain or ignite the fire of hatred and jealousy, but all end up with a total failure and despair. Life seems to flows as what I've planned for and nothing else matter at that time.

But days aren't always bright till the end. Who knows right what's God plan for you. I hindered myself from being closer to my friends, limit my perceptions on friendship and being such a wonderful, romantica (ni budget je ni.....LOL), down to earth bf for the one whom I love the most. Until there were times where I'm holding up plans for myself and for those whom I called buddies. huhu. That's was truly unethical of me and I'm truly regret for the things which I've missed.

To my dearest friends, I know that I ain't qualify myself to forgive for what I've done in the past - being selfish and kind of introvert a bit. But I personally hope and wish that we can still be one till the end of the day. I love you all guys and ladies. Hoping to meet you guys again and let us marked the history together and chill out till the end of the days. Thanks you and thank you and thank you for such a wonderful gift you guys had brought into my life.

For Clanzz, you guys rock bebeh and keep on rocking!!!!!

P/S: For my skoolmates especially from SKPU & SMKDH whom is/are getting married after this Ramadhan and for those who already holding up the status being "bapak org", I wish you guys "Selamat Pengantin Baru & Selamat Bertunang" and had such a pleasurable and prosperous life with your partner/children/family. Jgn gedix2 nk gado2 tau. :p

Why...?

Last night, my heart wrenched with sheer sadness having heard that a friend of mine was severely suffering from heavy bleeding. Thou the friendship's established less than 2 months, I found the marks of a true friend in her and losing a fellow friend is never easy to swallow for any of us.

For you my dear friend, sickness is always an opportunity for the cleansing of the sinful soul. Never give up upon hope and always remember that we are all here praying for nothing else than for your recovery. Give a damn about what docs has to say either you only had 6 months or 1 year left. We'll always here to cherish you waiting for your laugh and smile.

Monday Blues

This mornink I woke up with thousands of question about my dream last night. Can you actually believe that a person you would never ever though of pop out in your dream. Yes, it happened to me. I met Tok Guru Niz Aziz in my dream and we were somehow discussing about issues related to Islam. hehe. I dunno know what does it meant up till this very moment. Maybe lately I've been given quite sometime thinking and evaluating my present self with my former one.

My mom just came down and visit me here at Paksu's house. Though I'm expecting several hwatt and spiciest stories with her as we have not seen for quite a while, my self seems kind of in a no-mood for gossiping. Sorry mom.:D

Indeed, I truly appreciate her visit as she brought along "ikan keli goreng masak sambal cili api kering" . That's the one you would say "thank you mom" for such a wonderful and extremely hot dish for dinner. What make it even special is that the fish was breed personally by my dad and you can even tell how fresh the fish were....fresh with love and care. :P

While I'm enjoying the feast on that evening, the elders spokes about their concern especially on the upcoming marriage between my nephew and his partner. And suddenly, my name came into their picture as they asked me to become the witness or "saksi" for that wedding. Gosh...it's kind of a surprise for me, yet I answer it in an appropriate, gentleman ways and agreed to help them. cewahhhh. :p

It's just that lately I've been given a deep thought about the concept of marriage especially in the 21st century. I'm not trying to diverse my understanding especially towards the "sunnah". It's just that I found many of those whom so called "true lover" or "romeo & juliet" or "destined to be together" previously, spend thousands or millions on their reception ...... ended up in a court for separation.

You can accuse me for being such a childish, immature or etc., but I've seen the result of it and the consequences. That's the reason why I'm having quite a "jiwa kacau" when it comes to marriage. Perhaps, it's time for me to re-construct myself and get back to the basic. :p

But one thing for sure at this very moment, I truly enjoy my present self and hopefully to explore it even further till the extend where the "seru" comes and might be someone out there who can enlighten me on the concept of marriage AGAIN. LOL