Have you ever thought that someone whom you love the most, whom you put all your never ending efforts in bringing the greatness out of his/her self would actually be the one who ruin you life the most? To tell you the truth, I have never ever imagined that it would actually happened to me. huhu. But as in my case, I personally think that it was such a great lessons and worthwhile as I've learnt such a tremendous thing bout my strength, my weaknesses, my character & attitude and how should I deals with "a lady" in the near future. LOL.
Well, people won't improved anything or understand the simple meaning of life unless there is/are event which lead towards failure. From there, we know who we are, what we are and the most importantly, how should we deal with them and not committing the similar "useless, uncivilized,disastrous, terrible" mistake. :p
Indeed, the key point of this post is not entirely about how I cope up with challenges and mumbling about my faith. What I actually want to share with you is how faith plays their role to educate us and bring the goodness in our self through out others life experienced.
Remembered what I've noted in my 3rd entry, about me knowing such a warmhearted lady who bring nothing else than what a man desire the most in this world. To tell you the truth, she's not as what you guys out there might be thinking of. She's an escort gurl whom I coincidentally met and unselfconsciously......erm.......xyah tau la ea. huhu
From the very first day I get to know her, she's somehow special and you can actually sense her sincerity through her writing. Well, you guys might have your very own perceptions about her but who else care right. hehe. She's lovable, charm and always know how to move you on even you had such a terrible day at work or life. Tough I was once of the people who detest the most about this so called "filthy profession JUST simply to get an easy money, easy way out for life entertainment and joy", my perception diverse 180 degrees once I get to know the real her.
Not everybody in this world managed to get what they dream off...a peaceful and merrier life, a loving hubby or bf...a great profession to guarantee his/her future and definitely money. As for her case, she's been played by her previous bf due to illegal money lender aka Mr. Along.
Strict reminder, never ever go to this kind of lenders coz you'll never know what life yet to offer you once the slaughterer came into picture and splashed your life with a blood of terror.
What she didn't know was that her bf named her as his guarantor and if he fails to pay back the money he owes, then this so call "Along" will by hook or crook squeezed up her life to pay back the total amount. And her nightmare begins when her bf start missing and no where else can be found. Being the only daughter to a single mother, her perfect life which she's currently ride on turned into her darkness flames of ashes in a blink of an eyes. She lost her job as an accountant, she lost her freedom and life being a human and what left is, being a pros served those filthy rich old guy so call VIP who are only looking at her as an object of lust (orang moden cakap, tempat nk buang air). Never once in her life she'd imagine that she had to go through the darkness life that no one else would ever desire.
What make me respect her the most is that, she never give up upon hopes and dreams. With the money she earned, she can easily lead a life the way she want. Instead, she used it to take care of her mother and paying up thousands of ringgit of hospitality bills for her. Even though her mother detest her damn much, she still trying her best to assists her in ways you could never imagine till her mother breathe her last breathes. I tried to assists her in a way that I can afford. But somehow, things get even worst for her. Being treated as a punching bag, an object with no self value, much lower than a stray cat/dog. She tried to move on and start a new life as a human, but failed to do so. She had to continue doing those job that she's not pleased to do so, serving her physical and acting like a slut in order to satisfy the lust of a BEAST.
Maybe God have some plans for her and who knows, she might be able to get away and continue the remaining of her life being a human again, with self respect and freedom. Therefore, I would like to dedicate this entry for the one there who have thought me the most about honesty, love, pain and sincerity. For you Ms. Lady, I thank you the most for your presence in my life and I hope that we can somehow meet up and get to know each other in such a proper way ..................... if not in this reality world, in life after. Insyallah~
Thank you.
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