My Past

Today, I got a message from a luvly friend of mine which asked me to look out for the song Berubah Hati by Anggun coz she told me that the song somehow illustrated what was the world that I've been living for the past few months which make up about a year I guess. Without me knowing what is/are the consequences about the song, I just hear it for the very first time in my whole life. And guess what, it really is. hehe. Tqsm dear for such recommendation.

People said, sharing is caring rite. So I thought that by sharing a fragment of time which I've once lived in and survived (I guess...:p), I wish that no one else in this world no matter from where you are, who you are or what you are...would ever experienced it coz it was way too difficult to resemble everything in words. For those who ........emmm, paham2 sendri la ea... get a grip of yourself. It's not the end of the world. This is what life was made up - a continuation or series of events which contributed towards either our survival or hell of frustration and despair. Trust me, you'll be a much better man once you've passed it. More lovable (sampai de org majuk sbb korunk x layan even korunk xde pape ngn die), mature and positive. :p

Anggun - Berubah Hati

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Cerita lalu di antara engkau dan aku
Dua hati ini pernah percaya
Seribu mimpi tanpa ragu tanpa curiga

Reff:
Ku tak ingin lagi
Menunggu, menanti
Harapan tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba
Hanya tuk kecewa
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara
Aku ingin pergi
Dan berganti hati

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Nada dan lagu yang dulu kucipta untukmu
Rasa yang dulu pernah ada
Kini berdebu terbelenggu dusta dan noda

Ku tak ingin lagi
Menunggu, menanti
Harapan tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba
Ku telah kecewa
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara

Kini ku sadari diri ini
Ingin berganti hati
Cinta yang tlah pergi
Harus berganti hati

Harus ku ganti hatiku kini
Harus ku ganti
Ini harus ku ganti
Tak perlu yang ini lagi harus berganti…

P/S: Thou I'm trying to my very best to assemble back the thousand pieces of my heart puzzle, I'm still powerless and no where near either to complete it or unlock it. Cheers. :)

Ultraman - Angel

It's been a while since ultraman dropped his tears for his one of a kind angel. Thou people may not understand the scenario in which ultraman and angel crossed towards each other, only those two who can actually clear the confusion behind all the theories and questionaires. Without having a deeper thought about their consequences, they kept on moving till the last drop of their blood and sweat.

Honestly for ultraman, to further equip himself with the preparation for the final day is truly one of the complicated things on earth that he ever thought of. What can an ultraman do to prevent the unwanted event which may caused him thousand years of disappointment and frustration. Nothing. Neither words can reach the ears of the angel nor orders which can control the action of the angel. What's left is that, a simple word best known as time.

Definitely, no one can stop the time from flowing as what it's been ordered ever since from the beginning. It's just an effort from a mere creation like ultraman who may or may not manipulate the circumstances of the event. Nevertheless, in this cases, what can an ultraman do was simply to create a shinning star in the heart of the angel. A star that will never fade through time, a star that nothing else can be compared of, a star which is specifically designed and customized for the only angel who ever lived.

For the one and only angel of ultraman, it's been such a wonderful time and experienced an ultraman ever had in his life being a mere creation - a merrier life without any concerns of dissapointment and misery. Despite the fact that knowing an angel is not something that was listed in his wish list or even things that can be anticipated from the beginning, ultraman got nothing else to say other than "Thank you...thank you...thank you".

2 years is defnitely way too short period for everything. Ultraman just can't keep up with the flow of pressure from all angle. What can an ultaman wish for the angel are nothing else than to live an outstanding and merrier life till her last breathe, regretting nothing and fully enjoy the presence of ultraman in her life.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, Tuhan sekalian alam. Hamba Mu yang keji lagi hina ini menadah sepuluh jari di malam hari memohon pertolongan Mu agar diperkuatkan semangatnya, diperkasakan imannya, dipermudahkan urusannya untuk menempuhi saki baki kehidupan di atas muka bumi ini. DiKau tenangkan lah hatinya, ringankan lah azabnya dan gembirakan lah hati dan sanubarinya. Hanya itu yang ku pohon pada Mu. Amin.~

BF Dating Guide (BDG) vs Hubby Dating Guide (HDG)

BDG: Took a min 1 hour to get shower, shaved and put a very nice scent of cologne, perfume.
HDG: Took a min 5 minutes to get everything prepared and spent the other 55 minutes waiting.

BDG: Dress smart on a date with a big smile crafted on his heart (perhaps on his brain).
HDG: Enough with vintage shirt, short and sandals. No emotional expression detected. Already in a no mood situation due to the long waiting time.

BDG: A jacket is compulsory item when watching a movie on a date.
HDG: A great snacks and drinks is compulsory when watching a movie on a date.

BDG: Quieing is not a problem.
HDG: Booking first, or else forget about the movie.

BDG: Recommend for couple seating when picking up a seat. Preferably those hujung2.
HDG: Recommend for a great movie which could inspire their love one.

BDG: When camera roled, curtain is off....actions took place.
HDG: When camera roled, curtain is off....snoaring took place.

BDG: Come out with nothing else than pure satisfaction about the action.
HDG: Regret picking up the movie as he can just download it thru the net.

Surrounded by Chixs

It was truly one of the greatest memories that I'll be treasuring for the rest of my life - being surrounded by chixs all day long for the past 2 weeks and few weeks in coming. You guys might be wondering how on earth am I as a simple, non macho yet lovable gentleman could score myself with not only one, but thousands of chix. Such an unexplainable phenomenon with undefinite answer and theory to justify the circumstances.

The truth is, those chix is not simply a mere hot babe or superlicious gugurl. They are chix that we eat from the moment we knew how tender and juicier they are best known as "ayam goreng". Not a chix that eat you and provide you with glorious satisfaction okay best known as "you know who". :p

FYI, I went for a visit to the poultry industry and managed to dig and gain some valuable and pricess information regarding chix that we eat. Thou there are few things in which I wish to share with uols about my experience, I'm bounded by contract as those info are some kind of pnc. Perhaps, I'll try to come up with a better clarification on my visit on the next post. Coz as of today, I'm still indebt and kind of feeling guilty to myself for insufficient sleep and rest.

Till then, cheers~:D

P/S: Thou I'm still sleepless and restless, somehow deep inside my heart I found back a piece of myself which I've left/ignore for quite sometime. Amin.

Sleepless

I came to a conclusion that I'm currently pushing myself too much in order to reach the pinnacle. Yet, in the middle of my journey, I found out that life is totally unpredictable. You may at one time thought that you made the right decision at that particular time. However, as time goes by, you might or at least have this kind of disappointment about the path that you'd choosen before.

For the time being, I still enjoy being me and continuously live my life to the fullest with new excitement, new journey, new experience and new thrill. It's just that I felt this kind of disappointment a bit coz I might be late updating my fb and blog since I'll be away for quite sometime. I'll shared with uols about my xtvt this week once I finished my report soon.

P/S: Miss the time "lepak2 berfacebooking and berblogging" from am to pm.

The Last 8 Hours

It's been a while since I drove to the office as normally, I would only do that coz I knew I might not be able to catch my "bullet train" due to unforeseen circumstances. But, as for today, I just feel like driving to the office. I would say, today's trip is definitely way too smooth and ease for me. Neither a terrible-bad-day traffic jammed nor crazy ass drivers overtook my cars like what I had previously. A simple phrase to describe my morning trip - it's like riding on a wind, comforting, soothing, pleasurable and full with satisfaction (cam experience kne massage je en...kui3...erk, de pengalaman ke? :p).

It took me a wonderful one hour journey before I reach my office. And for the last time, I straight away looking at the nearest stall selling my damn favourite nasi lemak with nasi tambah + paru goreng pedas + telur rebus + lots n lots of sambal which cost me about RM4. I just can't resist the tenderness and juiciness of the nasi lemak and paru. hehe. Perhaps after this, I may not be able to enjoy the great taste of my all time favourite Malaysian bf. Need to restart again and promoting a healthy way of life and eating culture, otherwise I may end up 50% of my life paying hospital bills. :p

At first, nothing much different spotted on my last day coming to the office. But, as I enjoying my bf while reading on the latest episode of one piece manga (the no 1 manga ever live to my expectation), I felt this one itchy sense and gloomy air spread around me. All of a sudden, I came to my wisdom where I'll be missing my work station, all my sticky notes, my files, my board and my notes. Last but not least, my colleague. That's where I start have this touchy feeling and bergenang gak la air kt mata. :(

Thou I must say, for the past few weeks my life has been nothing else than a total disaster 24/7 working cyborg. This is the time where all the projects somehow alive and a non-stop calls from vendors, clients and management. At a time, I felt like I need to learn how to use a ninjutsu - kage bushin where I need to speak and discuss with 3 different people simultaneously by phone. hehe. Such a headache and definitely a bad-hair day I must say.

I missed up updating my blogs, fb and wonders surfing the net. I'm sorry my dear. Its not to my intention that I kind of ignoring or abandoning you for the past few weeks. I wish I could turn back time and spend more time with you. Sorry my dear blog. :p

Yesterday, I had my presentation session with all the staff and the management. It's about my job scope here and what I've been doing for the past 15 months. Basically it's one of my company's restructuring programme to further improve staff competency and to determine or emphasizing staff interest in the areas that they are strong at. Coz you may not realize where's your talent is unless someone out there knocking you out and train you to be one. Even thou I was first given a 15 mins slot, I think I've covered the vital part of it and hopefully they enjoy it. And I guess, I did quite well in presenting my job scope and delivering my final decision towards the management.

Despite the fact that it was quite a tough particularly on several occasions, interviews, face-to-face sessions between me and my management for the past 4 weeks on my intention leaving the company, I managed to hold still to my decision. Thou there were moments I felt like standing on the edge of the cliff, I just can't think of anything. I knew I'm taking a risk in my career but somehow I felt that this is what I must do to prove that I'm worthy enough to become someone in the future kuwt. hehe. Just can't missed the word kuwt.

Too many things which I wish I can share with uols here, the memories of hits and missed, the moments of joy, excitement and not to forget disappointment. Perhaps, if I'm been given an opportunity in the near future, I dun mind telling uols. (budget diri kamu itu forfular...huhu :p). Just before I end, I wish to share with you a quote which I personally think its quite reliable, logical and useful in our daily life being a human being. In pursuit of happiness and success, we may sometime end up paving the road to hell, becoming a hypocrite and causing with nothing else than more destruction rather than peace as lust and greed rears its ugly head. No matter who you might become in the future, do realize that we aren't alone in this world. We need others to support us, so as well as others who may need our assistance later on.

P/S: Thanks guys for listening.

Love is Blind

Have you ever wondered how meaningful life would be should everything goes smoothly from the beginning? My sole answer is CRAP. I came to realize how challenging life could be once we're out from our comfort zone. No matter how much deep shooot trouble we 've got yourself in or how miserable our life with such tormented soul after being screwed up from top to toe, we must always remember that life must go on. A continuity from an event to another which co-related and co-existed in order to complete a full cycle known best as LIFE.

Life is short. Perhaps, it's way too short for us to simply achieve everything that we ever desire or grab the chances that ever came in, no matter in life and love. It's already such a headache to find someone who can suit our self, ride the wave as we do and blend perfectly with our life till the day we close our eyes for eternity. Yet, it's much more difficult to fall for someone even after we knew he/she is really into us from deep down inside our heart.

A simple woo and humour will definitely spice up the relationship with our love one. A flirtation technique I would say. We'll knew we're in love with the right one when a smile spread over our face when they appeared. In the beginning, we may think or have this kind of feeling where we hated their guts when they were fooling or messing around with us. Yet, we may as well feel this strange feelings when their absence has made us missing them.

To express our feelings is truly one of the challenging things in life. It's like we're gambling with it either it'd going to sink or float. Nevertheless, a moron like us just can't simply give a second thought about our decision as we are proposing for a greater deals and opportunity with the one we desired the most. The precious moment which gonna left us with one hell of a time memories that we'll carry out for the rest of our life.

Despite the fact that others may have their own perceptions which differs completely from what we had in mind...love is blind. This is the moment that we've been waiting for and work for the rest of our life.