Beeeezeeee

I believed it's been a while since I last update my blog about my activities, theories and perceptions about the world. huhu. Just can't do anything as there are tons of works which need to be completed within a short period of time.

Nevertheless, I believed I'm at peace in mind and heart. And thanks to all who have supported me from the beginning till the end.

P/S: A fwend of mine is getting married just after chrismas. Yet, I might lose this opportunity as I'll be on my way to offshore in the near future. gomeinasai minaa~

I Mish U

After a while u're out of my life, I'm here confessing that I mish u bintang. sigh~

My Past

Today, I got a message from a luvly friend of mine which asked me to look out for the song Berubah Hati by Anggun coz she told me that the song somehow illustrated what was the world that I've been living for the past few months which make up about a year I guess. Without me knowing what is/are the consequences about the song, I just hear it for the very first time in my whole life. And guess what, it really is. hehe. Tqsm dear for such recommendation.

People said, sharing is caring rite. So I thought that by sharing a fragment of time which I've once lived in and survived (I guess...:p), I wish that no one else in this world no matter from where you are, who you are or what you are...would ever experienced it coz it was way too difficult to resemble everything in words. For those who ........emmm, paham2 sendri la ea... get a grip of yourself. It's not the end of the world. This is what life was made up - a continuation or series of events which contributed towards either our survival or hell of frustration and despair. Trust me, you'll be a much better man once you've passed it. More lovable (sampai de org majuk sbb korunk x layan even korunk xde pape ngn die), mature and positive. :p

Anggun - Berubah Hati

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Cerita lalu di antara engkau dan aku
Dua hati ini pernah percaya
Seribu mimpi tanpa ragu tanpa curiga

Reff:
Ku tak ingin lagi
Menunggu, menanti
Harapan tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba
Hanya tuk kecewa
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara
Aku ingin pergi
Dan berganti hati

Satu persatu telah kuhapus
Nada dan lagu yang dulu kucipta untukmu
Rasa yang dulu pernah ada
Kini berdebu terbelenggu dusta dan noda

Ku tak ingin lagi
Menunggu, menanti
Harapan tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba
Ku telah kecewa
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara

Kini ku sadari diri ini
Ingin berganti hati
Cinta yang tlah pergi
Harus berganti hati

Harus ku ganti hatiku kini
Harus ku ganti
Ini harus ku ganti
Tak perlu yang ini lagi harus berganti…

P/S: Thou I'm trying to my very best to assemble back the thousand pieces of my heart puzzle, I'm still powerless and no where near either to complete it or unlock it. Cheers. :)

Ultraman - Angel

It's been a while since ultraman dropped his tears for his one of a kind angel. Thou people may not understand the scenario in which ultraman and angel crossed towards each other, only those two who can actually clear the confusion behind all the theories and questionaires. Without having a deeper thought about their consequences, they kept on moving till the last drop of their blood and sweat.

Honestly for ultraman, to further equip himself with the preparation for the final day is truly one of the complicated things on earth that he ever thought of. What can an ultraman do to prevent the unwanted event which may caused him thousand years of disappointment and frustration. Nothing. Neither words can reach the ears of the angel nor orders which can control the action of the angel. What's left is that, a simple word best known as time.

Definitely, no one can stop the time from flowing as what it's been ordered ever since from the beginning. It's just an effort from a mere creation like ultraman who may or may not manipulate the circumstances of the event. Nevertheless, in this cases, what can an ultraman do was simply to create a shinning star in the heart of the angel. A star that will never fade through time, a star that nothing else can be compared of, a star which is specifically designed and customized for the only angel who ever lived.

For the one and only angel of ultraman, it's been such a wonderful time and experienced an ultraman ever had in his life being a mere creation - a merrier life without any concerns of dissapointment and misery. Despite the fact that knowing an angel is not something that was listed in his wish list or even things that can be anticipated from the beginning, ultraman got nothing else to say other than "Thank you...thank you...thank you".

2 years is defnitely way too short period for everything. Ultraman just can't keep up with the flow of pressure from all angle. What can an ultaman wish for the angel are nothing else than to live an outstanding and merrier life till her last breathe, regretting nothing and fully enjoy the presence of ultraman in her life.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku, Tuhan sekalian alam. Hamba Mu yang keji lagi hina ini menadah sepuluh jari di malam hari memohon pertolongan Mu agar diperkuatkan semangatnya, diperkasakan imannya, dipermudahkan urusannya untuk menempuhi saki baki kehidupan di atas muka bumi ini. DiKau tenangkan lah hatinya, ringankan lah azabnya dan gembirakan lah hati dan sanubarinya. Hanya itu yang ku pohon pada Mu. Amin.~

BF Dating Guide (BDG) vs Hubby Dating Guide (HDG)

BDG: Took a min 1 hour to get shower, shaved and put a very nice scent of cologne, perfume.
HDG: Took a min 5 minutes to get everything prepared and spent the other 55 minutes waiting.

BDG: Dress smart on a date with a big smile crafted on his heart (perhaps on his brain).
HDG: Enough with vintage shirt, short and sandals. No emotional expression detected. Already in a no mood situation due to the long waiting time.

BDG: A jacket is compulsory item when watching a movie on a date.
HDG: A great snacks and drinks is compulsory when watching a movie on a date.

BDG: Quieing is not a problem.
HDG: Booking first, or else forget about the movie.

BDG: Recommend for couple seating when picking up a seat. Preferably those hujung2.
HDG: Recommend for a great movie which could inspire their love one.

BDG: When camera roled, curtain is off....actions took place.
HDG: When camera roled, curtain is off....snoaring took place.

BDG: Come out with nothing else than pure satisfaction about the action.
HDG: Regret picking up the movie as he can just download it thru the net.

Surrounded by Chixs

It was truly one of the greatest memories that I'll be treasuring for the rest of my life - being surrounded by chixs all day long for the past 2 weeks and few weeks in coming. You guys might be wondering how on earth am I as a simple, non macho yet lovable gentleman could score myself with not only one, but thousands of chix. Such an unexplainable phenomenon with undefinite answer and theory to justify the circumstances.

The truth is, those chix is not simply a mere hot babe or superlicious gugurl. They are chix that we eat from the moment we knew how tender and juicier they are best known as "ayam goreng". Not a chix that eat you and provide you with glorious satisfaction okay best known as "you know who". :p

FYI, I went for a visit to the poultry industry and managed to dig and gain some valuable and pricess information regarding chix that we eat. Thou there are few things in which I wish to share with uols about my experience, I'm bounded by contract as those info are some kind of pnc. Perhaps, I'll try to come up with a better clarification on my visit on the next post. Coz as of today, I'm still indebt and kind of feeling guilty to myself for insufficient sleep and rest.

Till then, cheers~:D

P/S: Thou I'm still sleepless and restless, somehow deep inside my heart I found back a piece of myself which I've left/ignore for quite sometime. Amin.

Sleepless

I came to a conclusion that I'm currently pushing myself too much in order to reach the pinnacle. Yet, in the middle of my journey, I found out that life is totally unpredictable. You may at one time thought that you made the right decision at that particular time. However, as time goes by, you might or at least have this kind of disappointment about the path that you'd choosen before.

For the time being, I still enjoy being me and continuously live my life to the fullest with new excitement, new journey, new experience and new thrill. It's just that I felt this kind of disappointment a bit coz I might be late updating my fb and blog since I'll be away for quite sometime. I'll shared with uols about my xtvt this week once I finished my report soon.

P/S: Miss the time "lepak2 berfacebooking and berblogging" from am to pm.

The Last 8 Hours

It's been a while since I drove to the office as normally, I would only do that coz I knew I might not be able to catch my "bullet train" due to unforeseen circumstances. But, as for today, I just feel like driving to the office. I would say, today's trip is definitely way too smooth and ease for me. Neither a terrible-bad-day traffic jammed nor crazy ass drivers overtook my cars like what I had previously. A simple phrase to describe my morning trip - it's like riding on a wind, comforting, soothing, pleasurable and full with satisfaction (cam experience kne massage je en...kui3...erk, de pengalaman ke? :p).

It took me a wonderful one hour journey before I reach my office. And for the last time, I straight away looking at the nearest stall selling my damn favourite nasi lemak with nasi tambah + paru goreng pedas + telur rebus + lots n lots of sambal which cost me about RM4. I just can't resist the tenderness and juiciness of the nasi lemak and paru. hehe. Perhaps after this, I may not be able to enjoy the great taste of my all time favourite Malaysian bf. Need to restart again and promoting a healthy way of life and eating culture, otherwise I may end up 50% of my life paying hospital bills. :p

At first, nothing much different spotted on my last day coming to the office. But, as I enjoying my bf while reading on the latest episode of one piece manga (the no 1 manga ever live to my expectation), I felt this one itchy sense and gloomy air spread around me. All of a sudden, I came to my wisdom where I'll be missing my work station, all my sticky notes, my files, my board and my notes. Last but not least, my colleague. That's where I start have this touchy feeling and bergenang gak la air kt mata. :(

Thou I must say, for the past few weeks my life has been nothing else than a total disaster 24/7 working cyborg. This is the time where all the projects somehow alive and a non-stop calls from vendors, clients and management. At a time, I felt like I need to learn how to use a ninjutsu - kage bushin where I need to speak and discuss with 3 different people simultaneously by phone. hehe. Such a headache and definitely a bad-hair day I must say.

I missed up updating my blogs, fb and wonders surfing the net. I'm sorry my dear. Its not to my intention that I kind of ignoring or abandoning you for the past few weeks. I wish I could turn back time and spend more time with you. Sorry my dear blog. :p

Yesterday, I had my presentation session with all the staff and the management. It's about my job scope here and what I've been doing for the past 15 months. Basically it's one of my company's restructuring programme to further improve staff competency and to determine or emphasizing staff interest in the areas that they are strong at. Coz you may not realize where's your talent is unless someone out there knocking you out and train you to be one. Even thou I was first given a 15 mins slot, I think I've covered the vital part of it and hopefully they enjoy it. And I guess, I did quite well in presenting my job scope and delivering my final decision towards the management.

Despite the fact that it was quite a tough particularly on several occasions, interviews, face-to-face sessions between me and my management for the past 4 weeks on my intention leaving the company, I managed to hold still to my decision. Thou there were moments I felt like standing on the edge of the cliff, I just can't think of anything. I knew I'm taking a risk in my career but somehow I felt that this is what I must do to prove that I'm worthy enough to become someone in the future kuwt. hehe. Just can't missed the word kuwt.

Too many things which I wish I can share with uols here, the memories of hits and missed, the moments of joy, excitement and not to forget disappointment. Perhaps, if I'm been given an opportunity in the near future, I dun mind telling uols. (budget diri kamu itu forfular...huhu :p). Just before I end, I wish to share with you a quote which I personally think its quite reliable, logical and useful in our daily life being a human being. In pursuit of happiness and success, we may sometime end up paving the road to hell, becoming a hypocrite and causing with nothing else than more destruction rather than peace as lust and greed rears its ugly head. No matter who you might become in the future, do realize that we aren't alone in this world. We need others to support us, so as well as others who may need our assistance later on.

P/S: Thanks guys for listening.

Love is Blind

Have you ever wondered how meaningful life would be should everything goes smoothly from the beginning? My sole answer is CRAP. I came to realize how challenging life could be once we're out from our comfort zone. No matter how much deep shooot trouble we 've got yourself in or how miserable our life with such tormented soul after being screwed up from top to toe, we must always remember that life must go on. A continuity from an event to another which co-related and co-existed in order to complete a full cycle known best as LIFE.

Life is short. Perhaps, it's way too short for us to simply achieve everything that we ever desire or grab the chances that ever came in, no matter in life and love. It's already such a headache to find someone who can suit our self, ride the wave as we do and blend perfectly with our life till the day we close our eyes for eternity. Yet, it's much more difficult to fall for someone even after we knew he/she is really into us from deep down inside our heart.

A simple woo and humour will definitely spice up the relationship with our love one. A flirtation technique I would say. We'll knew we're in love with the right one when a smile spread over our face when they appeared. In the beginning, we may think or have this kind of feeling where we hated their guts when they were fooling or messing around with us. Yet, we may as well feel this strange feelings when their absence has made us missing them.

To express our feelings is truly one of the challenging things in life. It's like we're gambling with it either it'd going to sink or float. Nevertheless, a moron like us just can't simply give a second thought about our decision as we are proposing for a greater deals and opportunity with the one we desired the most. The precious moment which gonna left us with one hell of a time memories that we'll carry out for the rest of our life.

Despite the fact that others may have their own perceptions which differs completely from what we had in mind...love is blind. This is the moment that we've been waiting for and work for the rest of our life.

Pengapit Terjun

The moment I wrote this entry, it signified that I've been enlightened and trusted with such an "honor" being a pengapit terjun or orang kampung cakap "bestman" for my cousin last Saturday. pergh, ayat xleh blah. :p Just to share it with uols, it was truly such an amazing, splendid experienced and perhaps I might jogged down in my diary as one of my glorious day in my whole life being a sudden bestman with nothing else to support me apart from my benevolent heart towards my family. huhu

It began when I was asked to wear a complete traditional baju melayu with sampin and songkok. At first I thought that the order was intended for the bachelors simply for us to suit our attire with the main event on that day. So...without any doubt, I just wore one without any songkok first. Hey, it's not like I'm afraid it will mess up with my hair or wax okay. Simply because it was way too early in the morning about 10 am. huhu. Whereas I've been informed earlier that the bride and groom shall arrive after the zohor prayer.

As the house was completely stuffed with visits from families, friends and neighbors, I thought that it's not appropriate for a single bachelor as mine to simply lepak-lepak around the kitchen doing nothing than spying on the topic that makcik-makcik were gossiping. So, I went out and lepak on the couch reading news paper. And the moment began when I heard some makcik-makcik kept asking "ni ke pengantin nye?"....err, I was like..."eh, xde la makcik. anak buah je." with a sweet and tenderness smile crafted on my face. :p

I'm still able to control my gentleness and composure as I've been expecting few torpedos similar like what I've had for the previous week about my so called "single" status. As nothing attract my attention that morning, I continued reading shin chan and gelak senyum sinis sorg2 as if I dont' care what other may think about me. LOL. At that time, one of my nephew is sitting next to me along with my mom. As we were having such a conversation, my maksu and my niece came direct to us asking for my cousin to become the pengapit for his older brother.

These so called sudden changes in the initial plan was due to the mis-communication between both parties as the previous pengapit only brought along a light green baju melayu prepared simply for the intended occasion. Whereas in this case, they are looking for a quite dark grey or combination of dark red and greyish a bit simply to perfectly suite the colour of the maid of honour's dress which is light silk pink kebaya or kurung moden.

Trang ta ta...there you goes. The brother refused to become the bestman. What else can I say, I was there with a complete baju melayu + samping staring at them. Tup tup, I've been requested to give an aid to them and as one of the family members, I just can't help it by simply nodding my head and agreed to them. huhu. At first, I asked my mom, what should I do and not to...but she's busy serving and welcoming guess and I just don't want to create a scene there. So, what I did was I just sit back and relax a bit and wait for the moment to arrive.

About 1 noon plus, me myself in a full suit baju melayu + sampin + songkok waited at the entrance of the main road to our house. Then my mom asked me to change my crocs with my working shoes. OMG, there I rushed things out and luckily I managed to find one and sempat lagi polish a bit here and there. :p. Only God knows how my heart pounding like there's no tomorrow with cold sweats when I've to payungkan pengantin and walked on the path of fame with them slowly step by step (aku wat catwalk time minggu bahasa kt skolah dlu pon x cuak cenggini). As you can see here, my height is about 1.58 m and my cousin is about 1.65-1.70m. huhu. But, I still manage to control my nerve and I pray that everything goes well.

What I can shared with uols was that, you'll definitely feel that you are the howtest person on earth as you're like "tumpang sekaki" the popularity of the bride and the groom. Everyone want to take your pictures with bottomless flash here and there (to be exact the bride and the groom picture :p). Then come over to the "bersanding" and to tell you the truth, it's much and much more fun and full with excitement rather than your worried. Reminder for the bestman, always bring a face tissues with you no matter where you are. huhu. Got a chance to learn new things there and got attacked by numerous people during the adat renjis merenjis. hehe. Truly magnificent and priceless experienced.

Thou my expectation on THAT day was definitely hit the jackpot with hundreds of ques about "hey, pasni ko lak", "ni dah jadi pengapit ni...x lame lagi la ni"....I'm quite delightful and at peace. It's no matter what others perception about me or THE expectation towards me, I'll be glad to answer them with nothing less than a million dollars smile on my face. Sweet, tender, juicier and irresistible smile. Insyallah, my time will come up later. Who know's right. :)

Last but not least, to my dearest cousin and his bride, Hafiz n Lily......congratulations on your wedding and I'm wishing you with nothing less than endless happiness and merrier life. :D

Picture of me with my lovely mom, the bride and the groom along with the maid of honour

Lousy Ex

Tetak bekas buah hati ada lelaki lain

SUBANG JAYA: Seorang lelaki berusia awal 20-an sanggup membelasah dan menetak bekas teman wanitanya berusia 18 tahun dengan parang hingga parah hanya kerana cemburu, semalam. Difahamkan, suspek berang apabila mengetahui bekas kekasihnya itu mula menjalinkan hubungan percintaan dengan lelaki lain walaupun baru beberapa hari menamatkan hubungan mereka.

Dalam kejadian kira-kira jam 3.30 pagi di sebuah asrama sebuah kolej swasta, di sini, suspek pergi ke kawasan berkenaan kononnya mahu menunjukkan seorang wanita yang baru menjadi pasangannya dipercayai bertujuan membuatkan mangsa cemburu.

Menurut sumber, sebaik tiba di asrama itu, suspek dengan bersahaja meminta keizinan daripada pengawal keselamatan untuk bertemu mangsa.

"Pengawal keselamatan yang tidak curiga dengan kehadiran suspek memanggil mangsa yang tidur di biliknya,” katanya.

Sumber berkata, sebaik mangsa bertemu bekas teman lelakinya itu, suspek mula mempersoalkan perbuatan mangsa meninggalkannya kerana lelaki lain.

Suspek mula memarahi mangsa dengan kata-kata kesat menyebabkan berlaku pertengkaran.

"Keadaan mula menjadi tegang apabila suspek mula bertindak agresif dengan memukul mangsa menyebabkan berlaku pergelutan,” katanya.

Difahamkan, wanita berusia 20-an yang dibawa suspek untuk ditunjukkan kepada mangsa pula hanya mendiamkan diri.

Katanya, akibat tidak berpuas hati kerana mangsa melawannya, suspek pergi ke keretanya mengambil sebilah parang. Tersentak dengan itu, mangsa cuba melarikan diri, namun gagal menyebabkan dia cedera di bahagian belakang dan kepala.

“Mangsa bernasib baik apabila kejadian itu disedari pengawal keselamatan yang kemudian menenangkan suspek sebelum merampas parang dipegangnya,” katanya. Suspek yang bimbang dicekup melarikan diri.

Sumber berkata, mangsa yang mengalami pendarahan teruk akibat tetakan itu dihantar ke sebuah hospital swasta berhampiran dan keadaannya kini dilaporkan masih kritikal.

“Doktor merawat mangsa membuat laporan di Balai Polis Subang Jaya, di sini, mengenai kejadian itu untuk siasatan dan tindakan lanjut,” katanya.

Difahamkan, sehingga jam 4 petang semalam, suspek yang menyerang mangsa belum ditangkap polis dan usaha memburunya giat dijalankan.Sementara itu, Ketua Polis Subang, Asisten Komisioner Zainal Rashid Abu Bakar ketika dihubungi, mengesahkan menerima laporan kejadian terbabit dan memberitahu siasatan lanjut dilakukan.

Source: Metro, Oct 1st, 2010

P/S: Err...only one word which came across my mind just now "LOUSY". I just can't accept the stupidity and insanity of which he'd showed in front of his new gurls and ex. Guys, if you ever had such difficulties in letting go of your ex, get yourself a new one. A much better one than the previous. There's millions out there waiting for you to woo them. Don't let your emotion control you. Trust me, I've been there and I knew how much pain that I've yet to endured. But, what's motivate me is that, if Dato K can get such a wonderful young, peagent, charming, successful ladies as Dato CT, why dun I get myself one right? :p

Awak...awak...Saya Cantik Tak? Saya Cun Tak? Saya Sexy Tak?

To be honest with you, I've always wondered and kept asking myself about the true meaning behind it. These so called phenomenons which most of us may or may not found out that its kind of a double edge sword question which requires (or should I say in this case urging/pushing) man to provide a lightning strike respond or a "know already @ expected" answer simply to satisfy the heart of a so called our soul mate. :p

Have you ever heard that beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder? In my way of translating and encrypting these code was - beauty is a very subjective and may differed from one to another person point of view. Thou we may have encountered couple of times where our eyes tends to look for the beauty inspired by the curvylicious figure, splendid xss size attires / up-to-date fashion, style & accessories / "insufficient material or thread" dresses which highlighted the beams, bumper and splendid slim tight and foot, it was simply based on one jurisdiction best known as lust.

Every living creature particularly man on this planet may or may not agreed with me how screwed we were until we realized that those tiny, puny little things that mostly screwed up our relationship at the end of the day were due to our very own fault. Ever since from the beginning, we have invited unnecessary argument and crossed sword with our family members defending the person that we choose to live with based on our perception of months or years of lusty-luvy-devy relationship. The perfect combo that we've been hunting as we've thought she can easily sparks and continuously ignite the flame of love due to her howtness, unrivaled nature till the earth crumble into pieces. huhu.

No matter how much we appreciate the nature of our love one, these so called temporary beauty is no where near to the ultimatum splendor that we ever dream off. Everything's going to fade away against time. And undeniably, she will also become part of it and might loose her grips on all her assets, howtness, beauty, soft and tender skin. Thou you may choose to spend thousands or even millions of dollars for plastic surgery so that she can always look younger and groovy delicious or simply play your stick and balls with a much more wild, crazy first class pisau cukur, nature of a human being will never satisfied with what we had and always hungers for more.

Indeed, I'm one of those man who once felt the attraction and have these kind of a soft spot for babes with greater height than me even without wearing any heels (plus points for 5 inch heels :p), those with tudung or a red / brownish dyed medium long straight hair, brownish clear and sparkling eyes, those who knew how to dress up and put some make up a bit here and there without actually look like a clown at the center of a crowd. Nevertheless, as time goes by and based on self and friends experienced I came to a conclusion that there's no one out there who came near or eventually assured the irrelevant 100% requirement successfully met. :)

What we actually looking for is someone who has the brain to think wisely, independently and attitudes that indicate she possessed the quality of being a fine woman ever live for a single man's life. Nothing else matter at the end of the day. We'll get back to the basic on the establishment on the successful concept of love, responsibility, loyalty and honesty. Therefore no matter how bored you were, how busy you might be, how terrible and miserable your life at the office, how many times you have to give your "know already" answer to your love one, voice it out clearly and sincerely through your heart and soul. Let her forever felt that she's the only one for you and keep up playing the rhythm note of love till there's no longer song to play.

Cheers :D

P/S: Tidak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis jika diri tidak seindah Sulaiman. Mengapa mengharap teman setampan Yusuf jika kasih tidak setulus Zulaikha. (quote from Zul FB's note...:p)

Difference between Girls and Matured Women

Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans.
Matured women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits.

Girls want to control the man in their life.
Matured women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.

Girls check you for not calling them.
Matured women are too busy to realize you hadn't.

Girls are afraid to be alone.
Matured women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.

Girls ignore the good guys.
Matured women ignore the bad guys.

Girls make you come home.
Matured women make you want to come home.

Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Matured women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.

Girls try to monopolize all their man's time ( I.e., don't want him hanging with his friends).
Matured women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends!

Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Matured women offer their shoulder and a tissue.

Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.
Matured women 'show' him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his 'manhood'.

Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Matured women know that, that was just one man.

Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection, ignoring all 'signs'.
Matured women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you back and move on, without bitterness.

Girls will read this and get an attitude.
Matured women will read this and pass it on to other Matured women and their male friends.

P/S: I'm not a Woman or Womanizer. :p

Crime Being Single

To my beloved family and friends, as far as I'm concerned and as you are fully aware about my status, yes...I'm still single, available and free to mingle or foolish around with anyone that I desire with definite restriction. There's no doubt about it and to be honest with you, I enjoy my present life style to the fullest even without me "rewarding" myself with such a gift called lover / special one.

I can simply hanging out with anyone, hunting for legal excitement and entertainment without having self conflict being a loner at the age of mine. I didn't see any flaw for being just me and I thank God very very much for the continuous blessed of a non-stop pleasurable and merrier life. Thou I may have not being accompanied by someone known as "lover" in this case, I'm still able to enjoy the great taste of love, self-respect from something that I classified as "bond".

Therefore, I wish that you guys can stop "teasing" me with such lunatic criticism about me being alone in my own world. You guys are WRONG...definitely WRONG. I have someone who care about me, who love me and to keep it short...someone who appreciate me for who I am in their life despite the fact that we didn't share any bloodlines or relationship.

P/S: The above statements was quoted with respect to a friend of mine who wish that people around him/her would at least understand about his/her feelings. Do respect the freedom of life that we've been blessed ever since we were out from our mom's womb. Show some respect and do watch out for things that come out from your uninsured combination of tongue, lips & saliva.

Hang Bila Lagi?

For this whole 2 weeks, I'll be receiving tons of ques regarding my status (either I'm single or not...definitely I'm single n available maa) and THE moment of truth...kawen. Thou me myself still in the early 20s (ceh, nk gak cakap...huhu), people around me including makcik2, pakcik2, sedare mare, atuk nenek, jiran2...all were fully equipped with top notch upgraded system super machine guns and artillery attacking me from various angle day and night. Aiyak, guys...do give me some space to breathe pls. :p

Yesterday, I accompanied my cousin together with the super machine guns to his majlis akad nikah at Puncak Perdana, SA. Alhamdulillah, with just 1 lafaz, he's now officially the husband to ms. lily at the age of 27. Syukur2. It's just that, I spotted one phenomenon in which I came across where I found it kind of odd for the bride & groom to sebak2 especially during the salam with the family members. Erm...why ea?

I did asked my mom about it, and she told me that it's not simply symbolized the tears of joy. It's actually has a greater meaning where at this point of time, you can actually sense the purity and sincerity of a son/daughter seeking for blessing and forgiveness especially from their parents. Despite the fact that we may have seen it as one of our customs and traditions especially during the morning of 1st Syawal, certainly it has its own epitome. An enigma where its beauty remains hidden. (pergh, ayat mmg xleh blah...:p)

Then, how can we experienced it if it's hidden from our naked eye? The sole answer towards this can only be achieved once we earnestly open our heart and willing to risk it. A true gesture that compliments life and happiness after we break out from our impenetrable fortress (in this case, our egoism) that we've unintentionally built around us for years.

While most of the people around me including cousins, nephews, friends & family has been fortunately found the love of their live, there are others who are still searching for that someone special. Whichever category / cluster that we fall into, the allure of the perfect love life fascinates each of us. Someone who can actually set you off in a rhapsody. :D

And just to close up this so call buang masa and not so meaningful post, I just wanna share my thought with uols who presently living away from your beloved one. It's said that absence makes the heart grow fonder. Nice quote was it? (huhu) This is probably why lovers who are apart spend most of their time thinking about each other. But do keep in mind that love sometime might find its own way out in a very contradiction ways. Spice it a bit with a right amount and quality of sweetness, bitterness, saltiness and sourness apart from conveying your true feelings towards your affection.

P/S: Single rocks bebeh. (even kekadang JE rs sunyi skit2) :p

Ignorance

I knew I may not be the guru or close to their superior simply to educate them especially on their responsibility towards their job. Nevertheless, I found myself quite disappointed with such events that took place around me today that doesn't seems to reflect the ethical or professionalism of a so called a dependable employee. Please bear in mind that I didn't hold any vengeance or revenge towards these people. It's just as part of the community or perhaps in an organization that we are working for, I just can't sit down and goyang kaki or facebooking pretending like there's nothing happened.

Just to keep things short, I ain't having such a great day today ever since I woke up. At some point, I had this discontent feeling until the extend of my bad hair day komuter trip in the morning. With all respect, most of the passenger who manage to find a vacant seat will definitely try to snatch at least 10-20 minutes of soundless short nap. But these so called youngsters who's kept on pumping the adrenalin into their veins do gave us such a headache with all the laugh and somehow trying to show off a bit. Aiyoyo...come on la bro & sis, we knew you are well educated, smart and your level of english is damned so high. But do understand and consider people around you. If you think you are so bagus sangat with all the techy terms, events and such that...why don't you proposed for a teh tarik stall to be placed at the corner of the coach or a specialized coach for you guys to mumbling around. Even someone holding position as high as Datuk or ceo sometimes took the train but acting like he's just a normal one. Do have this sense of responsibility towards your surrounding.

The other event which almost burst my brain out is when I'm asking for an assistance to simply prepare two hot teas as I'm having a meeting with supplier. Thou at that point I'm kind of alone handling such a vital meeting and rushing here and there trying to settle several jobs in 1 time, I ain't dropping down my pace or slacking around with my task. Knowing myself better, I took my job seriously. That's the reason why I'm seeking for an assistance to prepare such simple task which take less than a minute to prepare it (where in this case, this fall under this so called employee's responsibility/job scope/whatever you classified on). And I made my statement very clear with a pleasant voice/character and I made it twice. Then I proceed to settle few things and just want to check either its has been done or not. The moment I heard that THE employee said "owh...blom lg la", I was like "wt* are you doing at your place? I knew you are free and facebooking all day long" in my heart. Then THE employee siap tanye lak "asl push2 ni....x suka la". From that point of time, I said to myself "bro, saba byk2" and straight away went to the pantry to prepare the necessary ARRANGEMENT and serve it to them. Luckily my GM came into picture and assists me with the meeting.

That's the very reason why I hate to depend on other. Come on lah, if you wanna chat / facebooking / surfing the net...I ain't having such a problem with that cause we also did the same things in our free time AFTER WE SETTLE OUR JOB FIRST. Argh, just forget about it. I knew it such a waste for me to highlight these things where you kept on repeating the similar mistake all over again and never once came into your mind that "owh, I shouldn't do that...I should have do that...". This is where I wish THE employee "All the best for your future undertaking".

P/S: Ignorance is one of the root for dissatisfaction, misunderstanding and triggering the conflict between employees and employer. I just hope things get better in the near future.

Mood for Love?

Lately, I'm kind of having this itchy and touching feelings when it comes to the subject...LOVE. It's been a while since I left it behind, wrapped it properly in a box with ribbon tied to it and buried it deep beneath the earth. Analyzing the consequences about the tragedy which haunted me for quite a while, I'm now in my very best personality to regain back what I've lost in the past which is friendship. :)

Though I'm trying my best to work out some proper plan and fortunately manage to execute successfully several of them, I ain't going anywhere when the moment drop by and stole a secs/minutes/hours/months/years of my life. huhu. But, I ain't stopping my pace there. I knew, somewhere or somehow, I need to re-energize and re-self construct in order to cope with such challenging future in front of me.

I knew I'm on my right track and confident enough about my future undertaking. There's no mistake about the plan or even a tiny miscalculation about my personality, self development and career. No solid boundary for everything. But, I'm simply a mere human being. How tough I'm trying to act, how perfectly life has yet to offer me, there's still a room for disappointment and misbehavior. :(

I watched Sepi the other day when visiting my sedare-mare for this Hari Raya. Knowing my self better than any one else, the life that Adam lead (a character played by Afdlin Shauki) is somehow triggered a bulb in my mind and symbolized what I must do to continue this long and unpredicted journey. Nevertheless, his love story kind of bring me back to a state where I find myself clueless. LOL.

To love someone with all your heart passionately without any reason or sexual attraction, to hold them right and tight straight till the end of time and place them at the pinnacle of our wish list even until the very last moment of our breathe are not something that can be achieve in a single glance or years of an upside down of a relationship. It's all about honesty, sincerity and trust. Without these 3 basic ingredients, I can assure you that you are far away from achieving something that we call "Long Lasting of an Endless Moment of Pure LOVE Satisfaction". (berfalsafah lak aku ni di pg ari...huhu)

Just to wrap things out, it's not how good you are at your skill in the art of flirting and seduction, it's not how great you are in scoring the hottest chix of the century or getting yourself with a down to earth chix that simply drive you insane from the beginning till the end. It's about you being yourself and possessed the personality/capability to look stupid in front of your love one. That's the moment we're waiting for and someone who can actually accept us for who we are and what we are. :D

P/S: How perfectly you guys might be or wanna be, there's always a room for a mistake. Look at things in a different way and understand the concept of redha dengan ketentuan Ilahi.

My 3rd Attempt

Erm...all I can say is that...

Pending for 4th Session this coming Monday

P/S: What should I do now?

OMG, R U Trying to Scam Me?

From: Juliana Bt Kamaruddin
Thu, September 16, 2010 1:15:09 PM

Dear,

Assalamualaikum,

I'm Juliana Bt Kamaruddin, i work with Gems and Mineral Company here in England. i will like to introduce you to this business opportunity. i need your urgent assistance, which will be a benefit to both of us financially. i am contacting you because i don't want to lose this contract provided by our company because we both going to get a good profit from this business in the coming future. that's why I'm requesting you to be the supplier to our company so that we can both take advantage of this business opportunity in the company now. currently our company needs a three(3)years constant supplier of a product called RHODONITE HEMATITE which is a new scientific chemical fluid substance, its of lubricant, mainly used in the gemological laboratory for the purification of diamonds clarity treatment, generally what this fluid does is to penetrate deep into diamond and vaporizes out black inclusions in Diamonds and other precious stones. The original supplier of these product is in Malaysia and former supplier of this product to our company has finished his contract and our company is looking for any other person who can be able to supply the RHODONITE HEMATITE in large quantity so that to meet the demand of our consumers and merge into partnership with the company presently. The main reason why I'm writing you seeking your interest for assistance, i just want you to act as an intermediary agent to stand the gap between the sellers of the product(in Malaysia)and the buyers (our company). This is a big business, which will be of good dividends to both of us. i only need your cooperation to make this business successful. i will give you more information about this if you are willing to stand as the agent to supply my company the product. Firstly, i will like to secure a supply contract deal for you as a supplier to the company where i work. Based on percentage, originally the actual purchasing price of this chemical by the company per Carton is about USD4,000.00 if i convert it to US dollars while in Malaysia the local selling price is USD2,100.00 and our company needs not less than 200 Cartons. The reason why i want you to be our agent is to be the link connecting the local seller in Malaysia directly to the buying company then the profit margin will be shared by both of us 50% to you while 50% to me. Your major assistance for me is just for you to talk to our company director that you can supply the company the product and to also go in details in terms of price and mode of payment then we can pick up from that point. please get back to me as soon as you receive my email if you are interested and willing to do business with me so that i can give you the local seller's contact in Malaysia so that you can contact her to ask if she has this product in stock to supply to you. before our company sends the purchasing manager will come over there in Malaysia to purchase the product from you directly. thanks for your co-operation. am waiting to hear from you soon.

regard's
Juliana

What would you do if you are in my condition:-
a. Make a police report or
b. Try to play around with "her" or
c. Just give a damned about it

P/S: Korunk rase awek name juliana ni hwat x? :P

My 2nd Attempt

In my first attempt yesterday, I did stood still on both of my legs (even thou at that point of time I'm stiitng sket punye baeek landing on my chair) on my decision of leaving the company. I always thought that this is part of life learning and in order for me to crave my name in the arena of globalization, this is the beginning of new me and nothing can't hold me anymore. Yet, my expectation disappointing me after THE actual face to face session with my GM this afternoon.

I was like ayam berak kapur and couldn't sit still ever since I made my step into the office this morning. The very first thing that I wanted to do is to simply put the resignation letter on top of his table. But, it's not an appropriate ways or a gentlemen would do. I've waited for quite some time in order to capture a fraction of time, THE perfect time for me to hand over the letter by myself. And sadly, I only managed to do so about 4 pm after I've email the letter of offer acceptance late this morning. huhu.

Once I spotted the time, slowly I made my step in and properly greet him wishing he's at his best and no jiwa kacau. The ambient around me is pretty much okay and comfortable until I showed the letter to him. Well, guess what...here's the first session of today where it took me about 20-30 minutes simply to clarify my very own reason wise of quiting the job. pergh, xm final year aku pon x susah nk jawab camni. :p

Later, my GM asked me to go to the backside of the office at the smoking area for the second session. err.... I was like...dear GOD, please help me... huhu. I think he end up smoke for about 3 cigars during that session. I've to admit that he's really good in mind reading and kind of knowing how to tackle these kind of problems within a secs. He tried to change my mind set about my work, how can I utilized my potential (communication, corner here & there a bit, play with emotion when talking, etc) as initially I've been trained to become a manager in years to come, how at ease he is when I'm around assisting him and somehow indicate that I'm kind of an important asset for the company. (huhu, perasan lbey je nie..ku tambah2 je tu...sorry boss :p)

Nevertheless, I ain't give a room for any influential elements that might lead me of thinking the other way around. I've come to a conclusion and I ain't taking step backward. Thou I knew he's actually trying very hard to open my mind and heart about the fact of my consequences, about my role and responsibility, about my future development and about life...I just can't take it anymore. I believe the time has come for me and I pray that this is the path bless by God.

Despite the fact I've been debating about my decision leaving the company and my so called dreams for all day long , the argument ain't going anywhere. No positive development was seen today. It'll continue with the third sessions along with my GM & MD this coming Friday. huhu. Hopefully I'm prepared mentally and physically with enough bullets to defend my self (I did seek for an assistance and additional fire power such as bazookas for my back up plan...dunno either sempat or not) and enough protection (let it be either bunker or bullet proof vest) to simply protect and secure my heart, mind and wisdom for my final battle.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, dikau berkatilah dan permudahkanlah perjalanan hamba-Mu ini yg serba kekurangan, lemah dan sering kali terlupa mahupun terleka ini. Amin.~

I'm Officially Di Risik Part 2

The moment of truth...actually things ain't smooth as what I presumed it would become. Knowing the consequences about my action previously and what actually took placed today, I just can't stop thinking about it. Thinking about leaving my status here and my beloved work station and counting days left before I make my final move. huhu. I'm moving out from my present company. It's has nothing to do with any engagement or things about marriage. Just to spice up life a bit. LOL.

Yet again, I found my self kind of a bit touching here and there after I had a short discussion with my management about my decision leaving the company. Please don't get me wrong dear, I ain't feeling any regret or depressed about my final jurisdiction. It's just...argh...let's just follow the following chat and you'll get what I meant here.

me: boss, aku de brite yg agak hangat nk minx rujukan ko ni
management: apa dia?
me: aku rase aku akan resign dr company la bos
management: asal lak?
me: erks, brubah angin skit kut
management: mana boleh
me: erks, asl lak
management: kalau aku tak bagi resign macam mana?
me: haha
management: kau terlalu penting
me: sume dh settle, notice sume kn ku settlekn dlm bulan ni
management: kau dapat offer tempat lain ke?
me: haah
management: macam ni ah. ko jgn pkir bnyk2 dulu, nanti aku pula sakit kepala
me: hehe, sorry2
management: np. aku discuss dgn kau besok

The moment I read he wrote "kau terlalu penting", it really touched me pretty damn hard deep beneath my soul. At first I was thinking "erks, adakah aku ngelamun pepagi bute ni? budget diri kamu itu seorang pekerja yg berdedikasi, harapan company, bakal pemimpin n bla...bla...bla...". haha.

Let's just pray for the success of my attempt tomorrow after an actual meetink with him. :D

At Last ...

I've been hindering myself from joining any social networking ever since I faced one dilemma years ago. Yet, as I evaluated my present scenario and after been kenen2 by my colleagues for the past 2 years, I officially would like to declare that ...

I'm now on FB...wakaka

I knew that I'm kind of ketinggalan zaman a bit. But, it's never too late to start something or anything right. :P

An Exchange for a 1 Million

Ever since I came back for the past few weeks, my mind and part of my soul craving for the scent which I've encountered during my transit at Kuching. Thou actually at that point of time I was looking for Kek Lapis as a goodies. But since I was so gatal kaki masuk kedai fragrance and gatal mulut and tangan trying several kind of perfume before I instantly fall in love with the scent of daring, irresistible, sensual, sweeeeet yet muscular fragrance - quote from anonymous. LOL.

It really gave me such a headache for the first 10 minutes as I've been mingling around that area wondering is it worth buying or not. However, I just let it buried deep inside my heart as I first thought that I need to spend wisely especially for the coming Hari Raya. pergh, sdey dowh.

Nevertheless, syukur ke hadrat Ilahi I have few hundred bucks left (x tau macam mane leh tlebey budget...huhu) and straight away drove to Bukit Tinggi and reward myself with this perfume. To my dearest PR 1 Mil, welcome to my family and can't wait to mencapub gi office with new fragrance. :p

Salam Eid Fitri to Uols

In just an hour or two, I'll be leaving to my hometown in Kedah for the Hari Raya celebration. Thou for this point of time, I'll be taking a bus straight from here to kampung. Lame x merasa naik bas for such a long trips. hehe. woo...woo...woo balik kampung...woo...woo...woo balik kampung...hati girang~. hehe. Dunno why after quite sometime I've been missing the wonders or feelings of celebrating Hari Raya Aidil Fitri, a sudden change in the mood this morning truly trigger the adrenalin while I pack everything up in my bag.

For this coming Hari Raya, even though I didn't apply for any additional leave as what I used to previously, I ain't stopping my heart and soul from enjoying every single minutes of my life. Thou there are few things that might happen after the raya break, as for the time being, let us all pray for the safety and mesmerizing Hari Raya.

And I would like to take this opportunity to wish uols Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Thou I may not know what's the batin is all about, let's just leave it like that. Manela tau kn. LOL

For elders and colleagues, wish uols had such an unforgettable and wonderful Hari Raya, drive safely and watch out for your health and cholesterol level. Jangan kedeng hulur duit raya utk ank buah lak. :p

For adek2 shomeyls, please spent wisely with your duit raya and avoid playing, nuying or possessing any kind of mercun or fire crackers.

THE Buka Puasa Sessions

For the past few weeks, I've been kind of rude to my self and selfishly torturing my body with a bottomless superb cuisine during the company's Buka Puasa events. hehe. Thou I only scored 3 full buffet sessions for the year 2010 Buka Puasa, yet I found myself enjoying every single things that they are offering me range from appetizer, main dishes, soups and deserts.

Thou for this year, the events has not been planned properly as what we actually experienced back then, it's definitely be one of the best moment in my life working with the company. :P. I never wasted every single dollars and cents spent on the dishes and get my ass to work on how to endeavor such a tremendous cuisine and enjoying till the last bite. wala.

The first buffet I had this year was at the Shangri La KL. This place really do bring back lots of fond memories as it was the very first place I've seen my superior drove his Lamborghini Gallardo Superleggera and broke the silent of the night with its stroke. hehe. Baru aku tau yang keta2 sport gni, nk drive susah skit and nk kene de special license cane nk handle stereng sume. Kalo reverse pon nkkene main minyak. :p Hehe. Back to our main subject, Shangri La has never failed to amuse us with its variety of dishes. Poor that I've missed to shoot some of the photos during the event. Environment wise, superb.

The second one I had is at JW Marriott. So far, I found out that the skewer or what local people call sate and roasted lamb here is much better than what the previous hotel offered. Thou we had our thrill there as it was quite raining at that point of time and couldn't completely experienced having a dish near the pool, we still enjoy our day as each one of us get the angpau from one of the superior. hehe. Overall rate for this buffet, quite ok lah.

The last one that I just had is at Sheraton KL. Previously, we planned to go to Double Trees but end up it's full house as we are a bit late for the booking. Nevertheless, I would say the dishes offered was truly superb from sushi, sashimi, variety of soups, westerns, dumplings, ikan bakar, fresh juices and environment wise. I even treat my self with a soup lidah and it was tremendously superb. The meat is tender and sweet and you can simply digest it directly without chewing it slowly and feel the experienced. pergh, sedap babe.

I'll post few pictures later on once I got them from my colleague after the raya break.

P/S: Pictures taken from Zati's blog. Kudos to her. :D

Is Your Hubby Cheating on You or ...

The Filipina maid asked for a pay increase.

The wife was very upset about this and decided to talk to her about the raise.

Wife: 'Now Maria, why do you want a pay increase?'
Maria: 'Well Mam, there are 3 reasons why I want an increase. The first is that I iron better than you.'
Wife: 'Who said you iron better than me?'
Maria: 'Jor husband say so.'
Wife: 'Oh.'

Maria: 'The second reason is that I am a better cook than you.'
Wife: 'Nonsense, who said you were a better cook than me?'
Maria: 'Jor husband did.'
Wife: 'Oh...'

Maria: 'The third reason is that I am better at sex than you in bed.'
Wife: (Really furious now) 'Did my husband say that as well?'
Maria: 'No mum...the gardener did.'

Wife: 'So how much do you want? Is $500 more ok with you?' :p

What We'll Become When We Grown Up?

Thou my body is still in the state of recovery after a long flight previous day, I ain't stopping my heart and mind to go shooooooping for this coming raya. hehe. Actually, the main course of my jalan-jalan the other day was for the sake of finding my so called new shoes as the previous one was totally out-of-service. Went to Pyramid as I heard they are having a big sale with a theme of "kenangan masa lalu di stesen kereta api tanah melayu". (suke suki je aku bg theme... :P)

It's truly a piece of art where you can actually experienced yourself riding on the 0 km/hr train, the way people back then play with style and fashion while doing their business where man wearing a complete baju melayu with sampin, songkok, selipar capal and woman wearing kebaya nyonya along with sanggul and etc. waaaa... I really do miss the old time. ceh, bajet diri kamu itu dh tue sgt la ea...LOL

But again, I end up not buying anything again during this trip. Buang mase je kn. LOL. However, even thou I didn't do any shopping till the end, I still have a plan for my Saturday Movie Nite again as it was way too early to go back home. huhu. And for this time around, I bought my self a ticket for the Grown Ups movie.

Synopsis:

In 1978 an inspirational coach nicknamed Buzzer led four talented young basketball players and one completely un-athletic kid (Chris Rock's character, aged 12) to the championship. It would be the only team to win the championship in the coach's long career, and the boys who played on it respected their coach and remained friends long after that championship season was over. When word comes the coach has passed away, the now 40+ year olds gather at their old stomping grounds - a beach house in New England - for the funeral and to spread Buzzer's ashes.

Now grown up, the five-some lead very different lives. As a kid, Eric was the fit guy who played enforcer. As an adult, Eric (Kevin James) has gotten soft in the middle and is now the father of a 48 month old who still breastfeeds from mom, Sally (Maria Bello). Kurt (Chris Rock) is a stay-at-home dad whose pregnant wife (Maya Rudolph) takes him for granted, makes fun of his cooking, and has planted her mom in the household just to annoy him. Marcus (David Spade) is a 40 year old horndog, and Rob (Rob Schneider) has become this granola-loving, New Age sensitive man married to a woman 30+ years his senior (Joyce Van Patten). And Lenny (Sandler) is a big-shot Hollywood agent married to a gorgeous fashion designer (Salma Hayek) with two video-game loving sons so spoiled they text their nanny to order drinks and food so they don't have to leave the couch, and a cute daughter who seems more in touch with the real world than all the other kids and the adults combined.

Getting back together for a weekend brings out the kid in each of the guys. And as they get in touch with their inner child, each learns to appreciate what they have and to cherish their relationships.

By knowing the fact that this is an Adam Sandler movie from the beginning, you can actually figure out what's on his mind. There are scenes of gross and idiotic moments, shots of Chris Rock’s mother-in-laws bunions, the inappropriate breast-feeding, Kevin James crashing into a tree on a rope swing, Rob Schneider’s ridiculously three daughters (two extremely hwat and spice and one goofy looking :P), and pretty much every scene including Rob Schneider’s geriatric lover.

I personally think that the dialogue is kind of interesting to explore as if it was designed to with a sole intention of cracking for the real deal in life - how people feel and talk when there aren't any cameras rolling or scripts and directors. It's almost like you're part of the movie, physically there with the actors, listening to our partners having a conversation with their childhood friends, how we (men) actually work on our magic (for those charming one...LOL) showing our children on how to enjoy their life without tv's, video games, nannies and etc.

Overall, I found the excitement and enjoyment in many ways thru this movie. Thou there were ridiculous scenes and statement that no one would say aloud in real life especially during the scene on the dock when all the couples have lil heart 2 heart session, I personally think that it should be okay to spice up life a bit. Well, you can't expect everything smooth from the beginning and satisfy your eagerness, favors and follow everything that you desire unless you are the one directing the movie at the first place.

P/S: Winning is not everything. Sometimes we need to experience the feeling of loosing in order to gain something beneficial for our life.

Being Y.O.U

I'm not regretting for things I've done in the past neither nor things which I may end up with in the future. It's just that I realized somehow deep inside my heart that it's no longer there. Things which holding me back there was simply the feeling of guilty, sympathy and last but not least - sense of responsibility towards my duty. I just can't get back the motivation or at least the enthusiasm to stay there. huhu... better stop here lah, xmau pening2 pale and spoil my day. :p

At this very point of time, I'm actually enjoying such a pleasurable moment of short-term vacation during fasting month till the end of the week. Thou the balance of my annual leave is less than a day till the end of year 2010 (hehe), I felt no regret about it. To be honest with uols, I personally need that kind of period to reboot or refresh or re-energize or what ever people might say. A time where you are totally in control of yourself - physically and mentaly without any langau buzzing around your head.

Just to share with you on things which actually took place around me today - I've met several interesting people whom inspired me to be simply me. Despite the fact that it's kind of a lame topic, they somehow knocked me off from my never ending nightmare. One of them tought me about it's not a crime being you and you should enjoy yourself to the fullest doing things that you enjoy the most. Definetely, you'll achieve your glory or something worth enough to die for in the future rather than continuously treating yourself as a robot taking commands from the controller.

I've always have this kind of thinking in my head ever since I'm in secondary school. Do not afraid to commit mistake of making choices in our life. No matter how perfectionist you might turn up later on, you'll definitely encounter a moment where you'll felt neglected or ignored by the world around you. The key point is, never give up upon such incident. No one knows what'll happen in the future. It's true that somehow someone out there might be able to predict at most 99.99999% accurately based on statistics, experimental datas, minx nombor ekor and etc, but the actual event is not our card to call.

I don't really care actually about others perception about my way of thinking or behaviour. Because at the end of the day, I knew I'm not perfect. Even thou I'm putting my efforts to the fullest, be perfectionist, play my roles and responsibilities above the expectation of others, deep inside of me I want someone who can actually gave his/her personal opinion sincerely. No matter how good you are, there's always someone out there is better than you.

P/S: Please avoid any double standard, hanky panky perception about people around you. We are not living in this world by ourself. We'll need others to complete us.

Negaraku Merdeka

This message is dedicated exclusively from the bottom of my heart to my only beloved country, Malaysia and to all it's citizen despite the difference in ethnicity, race, religion, socio-economic background, political ideologies, shape, color and size...

Selamat Menyambut Hari Kemerdekaan kali ke-53

Let us work together as one - continuously improving, maintaining and promoting the stability, peace and prosperity of our country.

Peace no war. :D

Am I'm Sicked?

Just collected my PMU offshore medical examination report from Twin Tower Medical Centre this morning. FYI, this is the very first time for me to undergone such procedures which involved numbers of examination from top to toe and required me to undress my shirt for several times. huhu. At first, I was kind of segan-segan silu to unbutton my shirt completely. Al-maklumlah, first timer la katekan. LOL.

And from there, I noted that the level of total cholesterol in my body is a bit high from the reference range. That's what triggered the alarm in my head to carry out a postmortem based on the findings eagerly - searching for an answer to justify the reason why and what's the consequences towards my health in the long run. Ceh, tu la...dulu orang suruh amik medic, xmau. Sibuk duk buat health inspection sendrik. :p

Just wanna share with uols about the topic mentioned herewith:-

Cholesterol is a lipid (fat chemical) that is made in the liver from fatty foods that we eat. A certain amount of cholesterol is present in the bloodstream. You need some cholesterol to keep healthy. Cholesterol is carried in the blood as part of particles called lipoproteins. There are different types of lipoproteins, but the most relevant to cholesterol are:

• Low density lipoproteins carrying cholesterol - LDL cholesterol. This is often referred to as 'bad cholesterol' as it is the one mainly involved in forming atheroma. Atheroma is the main underlying cause of various cardiovascular diseases (see below). Usually, about 70% of cholesterol in the blood is LDL cholesterol, but the percentage can vary from person to person.

• High density lipoproteins carrying cholesterol - HDL cholesterol. This is often referred to as 'good cholesterol' as it may actually prevent atheroma formation.

The following levels are generally regarded as desirable:

• Total cholesterol (TC) - 5.0 mmol/l or less. However, about 2 in 3 adults in the UK have a total cholesterol level of 5.0 mmol/l or above.
  
• Low-density lipoprotein (LDL) cholesterol after an overnight fast: 3.0 mmol/l or less. High-density lipoprotein (HDL) cholesterol: 1.2 mmol/l or more.
• TC/HDL ratio: 4.5 or less. That is, your total cholesterol divided by your HDL cholesterol. This reflects the fact that for any given total cholesterol level, the more HDL, the better.As a rule, the higher the LDL cholesterol level, the greater the risk to health.

However, your level of cholesterol has to be viewed as part of your overall cardiovascular health risk. The cardiovascular health risk from any given level of cholesterol can vary, depending on the level of your HDL cholesterol, and on other health risk factors that you may have.

And to keep it short and as simple as it can be, I've listed down all the possibilities to eradicate any symptoms of illness due to the excess of cholesterol and as an effort/insurance to ensure I have such a longevity, outstanding life style as per below:-

1. Try to watch out my diet from now onwards, or perhaps the easiest way (most preferable) is
   
2. Get myself a gugurl or gf or bini or seangkatan dengannya from medical background either a doc or a nurse. huhu.(kalo nak dedue skali leh x... :p)
   

Thou the price is a bit high from the other clinics which offer the same test, I promised you that you won't felt it such a waste/burden due to their tip top services and the quality of the reports. All in all, I would like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude to the doctors, nurses who take a great care of me during the test. :D

P/S: Life is short. Never thought that you are free from any possibilities of heart failure, disease just because you aren't a smoker, non-drinker, health cautious guy/lady & etc. We ain't controlling the ticking of the clock of life. ;-)

Mutual Affection

P/S: Love is a many splendid thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love! ~ quote from the movie Moulin Rouge ~

Sehati & Serumpun?

I'm not attempting to light up a spark of flame/anger against the ruthless and disgrace action by the Benteng Demokrasi Rakyat (rakyat lg...huhu) aka Bendera. It's just as part of the citizen of my beloved country, I just can't sit down act like nothing actually happened for the past few days.

I do understand the consequences about writing such post which might possessed a threat for those who reading it. But, I ain't stepping back from my freedom to raise my concern and share with the people who wish to hear my thought.

As we were completely aware about the demonstration by Bendera at the Malaysian embassy in Jakarta held in protest against the so-called arrest of three (3) Indonesians fisheries officials, they had thrown human feces at the embassy and stomped on the Malaysian flag. I just can't believed during at this point of time in the 21st century where science and technology rule the earth, there are still uncivilized people who tend to show up their eagerness,manhood through the act of a barbarian.

To be honest, I'm truly disappointed about things which took place earlier. I do understand the need to deliver their very own ideas about the dissatisfaction against what actually happened. However, wouldn't they just use an appropriate way of sending proposals and through diplomatic solution which is costless, timeless and much more humanitarian act. What a waste of time (where you can definitely do something which can earn you extra money rather than lepak-king and made a pointless demonstration in the middle of the noon....x panas ea?), talent and money (caused they need to buy our flag, a lighter to light up the fire). Don't you think so?

Apart from it, are you comfortable enough to hold your very own feces and then bring it to the embassy with your very own hand. er... even if I'm being paid million for it, definitely I won't caused I'm not that cheap and I have my own dignity and self-respect. In addition to that, they are simply showing their manhood in the middle of Holy Month of Ramadhan (x puase ke) where particularly in this month we've been advised to control our lust and suppressed our anger. What a day~

And also for the medias of both countries, try not to throw fuels to ignite the flame of hatred between these two nation. We've been together ever since from the beginning and why did we all of a sudden trying to stand up being a hero just for the cheap-sake controversial issues? It's already damned hard to get the independent, freedom and peace for each country and it is way too difficulty to maintain them without any toleration and wisdom.

Let us get back to the basic - we wanna live our life to the fullest, but first we need to ensure that we didn't do anything so stooooooopid enough to cause this troublesome event. Use our wisdom and brain instead of lust and anger. Jangan kerana setitik nila, habis susu sebelanga rosak.

Just wondering, as most of the political parties, NGOs in the country kept on sending message through medias about their disappointment against the act of Bendera, I still haven't heard anything even a tiny piece of comment coming out from the PR mouth. huhu. ops, tlbey sudey .... :p

P/S: Kind of a bit emo this morning caused have to cancel my holiday there. LOL

I'm Officially "Di Risik"...

Haha...just can't think of anything right now except to continuously laugh like there's no tomorrow bout my own "kesengalan" in selecting the top notch title of this post. huhu. Despite the fact that in normal tradition or at least in our Malay customs, man will be the one who bring this matter to their partner's parent and schedule a meeting between both parties for preliminary introductory session, but in my cases it was 360 degrees diverse. LOL.

I'll update soon once the "rombongan" arrive and how nostalgic would it be.

P/S: To all my secret admirers, gomeinasai mina san~ (ceh, glo perasan kambing diri kamu itu hot)

Leased Organ - Missed Payment - Died

I ain't having any plan last weekend, so I though that it should be okay if I just spend my morning time watching movie in the cinema. Thou at this point of time sleeping is much more meaningful rather than going out and burn your cash, I just can't sit down and enjoy myself without a plan on weekend. Reason wise, I've spent about a day last Saturday watching my car being serviced at workshop downtown - while she's been godek2 by the mechanics, me myself sitting down in the lounge watching tv from morning till end of noon.


Synopsis:-
Set in a future where health care reform has all but failed, the movie follows Union employee Remy (played by Jude Law), an average family man who pays for his suburban home by tracking down those individuals who have purchased artificial organs (artiforgs) on credit but who cannot meet their payment obligations. Once he finds them, he must repossess their artiforgs, which means...well, if you've ever seen the "Live Organ Transplants" sketch from Monty Python's The Meaning of Life, you know what that means: opening up the individual and returning the artiforg to the Union. But a repo goes wrong, putting Remy into a coma; when he wakes, he learns from his boss (Liev Schreiber, playing it with smarmy gusto) that he's been given an artificial heart to save his life.

Upon release from the hospital, his wife Carol (Carice van Houten) throws him out, refusing him even visitation with his son Peter. When Remy falls behind on his payments, he runs away with a woman (Beth, played by Alice Braga) with more artiforgs, and therefore far more to lose, than Remy. (When she learns, in one of the movie's most heavy-handed bits of symbolism, that Remy has an artificial heart, she tells him that that is the only part of her that isn't artificial.) A repo man tracks them down but is killed by Remy, leaving Remy's former partner and childhood friend Jake (thanklessly played by Forest Whitaker), to track him and Beth down before he can find a way to remove their payments from the Union's databases.

I've been waiting to watch this movie ever since I first saw the preview months ago. From the thriller showed earlier, it's kind of a piece of art and full with outrageous scene. Nevertheless, I found myself disappointed, a bit clueless and shivering in cold of the air-conditioner instead of fear. And I hate to say this, it's somehow promoted violent from the beginning till the end - educating people to corner their potential client to the very end of the road while hiding the truth from them. (basically, this is what we DID in our daily life):P

There are scenes in which I personally thought that has been carried out way to smoothly especially on the life taking part. pergh, blood spill all over the place (dah cam banjir kt pakistan dah) and it was truly a massacre, a night mare for each living things on earth. These so called repo man is somehow either an ex-army or to be exact, a serial killer who have found a space to live on executing their "task" thru their very own way and is acceptable by the community. OMG.

What I found the most bizarrely effective scene was when a man and woman kiss, caress and embrace passionately, while cutting deep into each other's body to nullify all their debts - it's a savage version of "I'm really into you". Man, that scene almost knock me off that day. Luckily I'm kind of immune to blood (I wish....hahaha).

Despite how tragic the movie is, there are still lessons in which we could learn especially on the importance of keeping a great care of our health. Blame me not, technology and science might save us and keeping us artificially breathe and alive as what we are - with the assistance from an artificial heart, lungs, kidneys, etc. But, it never come across any closer to bring the total happiness and peace of mind. Should this phenomenon somehow actually take place in the future, how are we going to survive. People tend to take things...ops I forgot...people tend to take EVERYTHING for granted. And thru this, I hope we can "steal" a minute in our life to think back about our mistake, our sins towards our health, our very own body. (sinis babe ayat ni...LOL)

Another thing in which I wish to highlight here is about the true meaning of friendship - it last forever and ever and ever and it's priceless. Thou we might argue about Jake's action which caused Remy a sudden changed of heart. But, at the end of the day you'll realized the important of having a partner who truly appreciate you for who you are and those who are willing to sacrifice almost everything for the sake of "helping" their love one.

P/S: If you wish to bring your love one to watch this movie, I proposed you bring along a shawl or something to cover your eyes when those scene played later.